apa la yang aku mngarut nih...

I took an EL ysterday...I woke up yesterday morning with a quesy stomach n nausea n dizziness that makes me had to lay back a few times to cool down my stomach...lastly, I called my boss n asked for an EL...after arranging for El to cover my clinic, I went back to sleep as Zaffran was already sleeping again..well its raining n its cold...so sleep was the best medicine..huhu..the whole day I was quesy n doesnt feel good..I decide I didnt want to send Zaffran to the nursery as i dont think I can drive that far..so I cooked chicken soup for lunch..while the chicken soup was broiling, then suddenly the gas finished. I had to take Zaffran to the shop n get a new gas..huhuhu..n I had to roll the heavy tong by myself tooo..boohoho...poor me..even with the chicken soup I had to take plain water to ensure the soup n rice stay in my stomach..I dont know why I feel so quesy...n the bile feels like its creeping into my esophagus n treatened to go out...huhu..its felt like when u had eaten a bad fish n u had a stomachache but without the diarea...I dnt know how to describe it... n today I can go to work but I cant even finish the rice that I took for lunch..my frens said I look like hell..hahah..ya..i think so...with the worrying about the BiG question MARK thing, n the lack of sleep..i guess i do look like hell...huhu..I talked to Ija about the big question mark thing...it calms me a bit...hope its not what Im thinking...huhuhu..speaking of Ija, she's a fren that I met tru Susuibu.com...she's the one that approached me 1st at ym..n since then I think we are quite good frens..talking to her or I mean Yming with her almost daily does makes my day...at least I got sumbody wif the same situation n status , halatuju or goal that is fully Bfdg, helps me a lot during this new journey of motherhood..she does have lots of good advice n tips though....Im sure gonna miss her after next week...huhuhu.."Ija...u takle YM kat rumah ke??heheheh" I never met her or speak to her, n even dont have her fon number but we are frens...we talk daily, change ideas, tell stories of each other...huhu..im sure gonna miss that...well, thats another thing that makes me amaze about frenship sumtimes...huhu..u never meet that one person but u can still be good frens wif them..=P

sometimes, when i reflect back of my life... in my daily life as a wife n mother, I do tend to be a bit selfish...I tend to write all the joyful think about being a mother in my blog, talked about my baby all the time even to a stranger, I dont have enuf time for my frens, I tend to be a bit selfish of myself n time...I dont know why..maybe when u are a mother, u have this feeling of protectiveness like a lioness taking care of her den , that makes ur bby ur priority above other things....I am sorry dear frens if I seems to talk so much about my bby...If I hurt u guys in sum ways..or if im being too selfish about my happiness or my new life...or i seems to ignore what u r going tru or doesnt cntact u too often...I am so sorry...its just that, sometimes when I am sleep deprived,when I am tired, I am only thnking about myself, my husband, my bby, my life n tend to forget others... sometimes I cant help feeling a bit jealous for those who are still so single n available that have all the time in the world for themselves...travel here n there,having so much fun huhuhu..n can sleep all they want...huhu..but wat Im going tru is such a blast actually...i dont regret it but I felt a stabbed in my heart sumtimes of sadness n feeling of guilt when people said that they are so jealous of what I have in my life..I wish I can whipped my magic wand n make them so happy too....n I pray the best for them so that they would find the joy that I have in their life..InsyAllah...


ish...apa yg aku mbebel pun taktahu la...huhu...

PSssstttt: this is the tired mind talking...huhu..dont listen to any of this or take it to the heart..its just sumtg ringankan minda aku yg tgh risau..huhuhu

proud to be a breastfeeding mummy...

"Mothers shall suckle their children for two whole years; (that is) for those who wish to complete the suckling. The duty of feeding and clothing nursing mothers in a seemly manner is upon the father of the child. No-one should be charged beyond his capacity. A mother should not be made to suffer because of her child, nor should he to whom the child is born (be made to suffer) because of his child. And on the (father's) heir is incumbent the like of that (which was incumbent on the father). If they desire to wean the child by mutual consent and (after) consultation, it is no sin for them; and if ye wish to give your children out to nurse, it is no sin for you, provide that ye pay what is due from you in kindness. Observe your duty to Allah, and know that Allah is Seer of what ye do. (Al Baqarah-233)

I am a dietitian..n I'm in charge of the Paeds ward in HUSM ..n as a dietitian, a lot of people including Doctors ask me n consult me on the best quality of formula milk a mother can give..the usual question I asked usually is, how old is the kid...if its below than 1 yr, I would say mummy's milk..!!!hehe..but if its more than 1yr I would advice as needed.. n when people asked me what formula I give to my baby, I am proud to say Im fully breastfdg..up till now..people would be amazed n they would usually cont with another question...mix fdg?if fully Bf how are u giving the milk to ur bby??? EBM la..duhhh...what really amaze me sumtimes, we are working in a BBY FRIENDLY HOSPTL, in PAEDIATRIC WARD..they should know better or at least have the knowledge about Bf...but sumtimes I find they tend to resort to FSM as its much easier rather than had to find time n effort to EBM n feed ur baby continuously...

For me, I am proud to say that I am fully breastfdg my babe n I planned to give him till 2yrs old.....evnthough it takes me lots of times, cutting down my resting n free time, makes me a bit self absorbed with myself but it really satisfy me...as I can brestfeed my babe..it really is a luxury that I have to fully Bfeed my babe..i think thats the only time I can bond n connect with my babe...when he's laying in my arms n sucking, there is this one feeling that I cant describe that runs tru my heart tht makes me feels so happy..seing him sucking enthusiastically n playing with my clothes or necklace or rubbing his cute little fingers against me makes me so happy...I cant imagine any other way for me to bond with my babe..as thats the only time in my daily days for me to be ith him only, in our own world..n when zulffi is available, we would include him in our little world..bonding us together just by the act of breastfedding, being this one small happy famly ..

I cant imagine why lots of mothers tend to resort to formula milk..it do cost lots of money to buy milk evry month..I prefer to spend my money to buy a good pump that can be use lots of time rather than spend money evry month to buy milk...that money I can use for more other thg like shoppppinggggg!!!hahahaha...

what I have seen in my daily job as dietitian, lots of mum prefer to give FSM maybe bcoz they think that formula milk is much more expensive so its a better quality than mum's milk.as mum's milk is easily available,n u can just be simply expressed or give u babe to suck..huh..what the......I dont know who gives that idea to them...eventhough the famly income is not that good but they tend to prefer to buy formula milk...huhu...well, its my job to advice them on Bfdg but sum of them just didnt bother at all..they claimed, no milk supply or suply is tooooo lowww...welllll, if u didnt feed ur babe how can the suplly be increased...duhhh..org bg nsht kdg bkn nak dgr....bg alasan...org mcm ni yang aku mls nak kaunsel tuh..huhu... tpi thankfully, since aku bria2 pam susu kat opis, my fren pun yng nak kwen or msih single sgt bmint nak Bf gak nnti..n I got sum fren from susu.ibu.com like Ija, asnidaz, hanum yg bleh btkar cite n idea..yg saling mggalak kan satu sama lain...n sum of my dctrs fren like dr noraihan, intan n the nurses in 1TB yg galak aku utk BFdg...n they are making me a model utk galak pt spya Bf gak..hehe...well, I hope my efforts is worthwhile n I can be role model to others to Bfdg too...it sure is worth it....my baby loves me more, n he's getting smarter n smarter evryday just with mummy's milk..not moooooo's milk..hahah..just yesterday on the way back from nursery I gave him his last bottle of EBM, he sucked it hungrily...n he can hold it with his hands....huhuhu..Im so proud of u my boy...n when the milk is finished, he shake the bottle to see if there is still any milk..when he feels a bit of mlik still there, he put it in his mouth n cont sucking till its finished..then he shake it again, n he felt there was no milk, he let go of the bottle n grab his rattle n play with it...good boy...smart one for his 4mnths age..I am so proud of u my boy!!!!!!

my baby, my love...

last night, Rizqi slept quite early...he fall asleep in the car seat on the way home from the nursery... Zulffi came home quite late last night as he had to work late..as Rizqi is sleeping n zulffi was not at home I was quite bored with nothing to do...I had all the time for myself BUT I DONT HAVE ANY IDEA what to do with myself...I planned to read a new book that I bought at MPh online but, I dont feel like reading....when u have finished a book n plan to start a new one it does take some effort sometimes...huhu...want to chat?hmmm the effort to plug on my laptop n modem does not really entice me...hmmm..lastly I planned to watch the soooo many DVD's I havent watch yet..but in the middle of the story, the DVd got hang...duhhh..boriingg..lastly..I just watched the news n waited till nine to watch CSI MIami..duhhhhh

I used to have all the time in the world to do what I want bfore the bby was born...but I usually spend my days with books..now with a baby, I spent my time playing n taking care of him...hehehe.. I kind a miss the time for me to 'guling guling' on my bed while reading a book..now, I can still do the same but if he cried, then I had to stop..the only time to read while breastfeeding him n when he is sleeping or when he is laying beside me on the bed n play with his rattle..hehehe...

last Friday morn, I was reading a book while Rizqi was playing with his rattle..when suddenly he was quiet n his face n body turned towards the window..he was kinda listening very carefully..when i tried to listen what was he listening to..I realized that the sounds of the frogs after the rain was quite loud..no wonder he looks so amazed..hehehe...he was quite funny the way he's listening to the sound of the frogThat means my boy hearing is good..hehehe ..boyyy...he sure is getting smarter ..

he is growing so quickly...he's getting chubbier, longer n smarter...he can laugh a lot, or smiles or talk to me with the language only baby knows what.. rite now, when we are eating he would look n open his mouth like waiting for us to give him a taste of the food. the pict of him with the ice cream was at Cameron last week...he was making a big fuss as he saw me n zulffi was eating icecream n kinda wanted to cry bcoz we refused to give it to him..when we put the ice cream on him, n he held it, suddenly he quit crying n start crying again when we took it back n want to eat it.. at last, we had to eat it bhind his back...n ysterday when I was eating Cek Mek, he was looking at the kuih n salivating so much...poor boy...wait till u r 6 mnth yaa..then ibu will feed u all the delicious fd n healthy fd..hehehe..ibu will practice alllll the advice ibu gives to ibu's pt's parent to u....boy..Im sure couldnt wait to feed u..n then u would weigh more...huhuhu...lnguh laaa tgn ibu...hahahaa..
sumtimes, I kinda miss the little boy he used to be...he's growing so fast..sometimes, when the nanny told me what he's been doing or any new dev.he did that dad, I cant help it to feel a bit sad as I was unable to see that new development as I had to work n only see him in the evening...if he slept right after we came home, then the only time I have to play with him is on the way to work...sometimes the 20minutes in the car was the only time I had to play with him in the whole day..huhuu sometimes I just wish I can stay at home n babysit him...But I know I would bore myself to death if Im a 247 stay in mum n housewife..huhuhu..the only time I feel content is during the weeknd when I can play n cuddle him all I want...

the trip to Cameron Last week was quite rejuventing for me n Zulffi...I can spend quality time with them without having to cook, or housekeeping...hahaha ...n it sure spice up thg for me n Zulffi...its a reconnecting time for me n him..sometimes I had been to busy with being a mum that I forget that I am also a wife..poor Zulffi....I vow to be a better wife to him...I had to learn how to manage my time as a wife n mum, balance my responsibilities for both of my luv, to be there for them...it sure is not an easy job but I will try n try to be the very best....

kdi mamak yang hampes

today me, EL n Hajra was supposed to go out to lunch to a kinda special place...Hjra is going to Spore nxt week for a week attachment at SGH..so both of us gonna miss her a lot for a week...me n EL had been waiting for her since 1230 as she's gone on ward rounds wif Prof Mus..we were quite hungry...but till one she still havent come down yet..we waited till 130 pm...after she came down at 130, we went out to hv our lunch...all of us were verrrrrrrrrrrrrry HUNGRYYYYYYY and cannot make decisions where to go...Me n Hjra wanted to eat Mcd but EL wanted to eat nasi beriani...so we went to this one Mamak Restaurant nar Billion that sells quite good Nasi briani but quite expensive n the staff is quite hmpes or rude...but as all of us were very hungry n cannot make any decision so we just ate there....

even when we had just sat down, all of us had been grumbling about the staff 's attitude...they were being quite rude..talking a lot of unneccesary thgs n making comments that made us feels irritated...

I asked for mee grg mamak but the cook asked if its ok that he cook mee grg ayam wif smbal ayam...HELLOOOOO.. i asked 4 mee grg mamak la....nak msk yg lain watper....hishhh

when the fd arrived, all of us was eating hungrily when suddenly I saw a piece of wire in the mee..it was quite long...I was quite pissed off wif them...how can a wire get into the fd...so I make a complaint to them...they served me another mee wif less portion n items in that me...grrrrrrrr....

Hjra said to remind her next time not to go there anymore even how desperate we are for fd..how good the fd was, DONT GO THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!...EVERRRRRRRRRR!!!!!...

I said if we go there again, I will kick their A** off...but Hajra said, she will kick her a** for herself...hahahah.... =)

menu plan for syarif...

Yesterday as usual ari Rabu pgi aku kena jaga k.diet utk outpt…the whole morning I was bz with pt yang takde la ramai pun..then ada dktr MO jr 6S call sb minta wat meal plan for Syarif. Syarif is a pt yang sgt cachexic sb ada CF..oral intake is poor..so nak increase kan oral intake dia pnya la ssh sb appetite low..camana kita nak force pt makan if dia tak nak mkn mlainkan msuk Ryles Tube utk start RTFdg…that’s the only way nak optimizr intake without pksa pt mkan…but RT dah off ritu sb apa tak tahu la…

Ok…diorg nak meal plan, aku buat la meal plan..but yang aku tak sukanya, bila ptg tuh. Diorg dah call bnyak kali tnya aku taknak naik ke tgok..aku sort of geram la juga..kita nak wat meal plan its not as if kita bleh whizzed off like a wizard n here we have a meal plan…u have to calculate the requirement, CHO, fat prot etc, then tgok fave food dia..apa yg dia tak suka..apa yg available…diorg expect aku nak wat plan, just main reka ja apa2 menu..then dapur bleh mskkan trus especially utk dia…hello….this is Gov hosp tau…bkn private or rmh yang kita simply bleh request…its not as easy as that…tmbhn dpur tgh renovate so nak dptkan menu yang plik2 payah la sikit…so kena la tgok menu dpur..n reka menu for the pt. ..kita bleh la buat menu but pt nak mkn ke tak that’s another issue..but as Doktrs nak juga soh buat menu plan..tak kira la pt leh mkn ke tak..then aku buat la…but pd aku its just a waste of plan as pt takle nak totally comply pun 100%..just skdar nak cntikkan dlm folder pt ada menu plan…hmmm..if review balik lps ni, why pt wt tak naik..hmmm..msti nak slahkan dietitian balik…tak manage properly..salah siapa sbnrnya….

Sumtimes doktrs tend to assume that we are all don’t have other jobs to do than tgok pt…n they tend to think manage diet pt is as simple as balaja masak…ingt sng camtuh ke..if tak, takde la smpi 4thun kena blaja utk dpt degree dietetic…n sumtimes I think doctors are quite self absorbed wif themselves…whatever they want or need, its pronto…no waiting whatsoever…if they think they are rite n know it all, they not tend to listen to other professionals’ opinion…huhuh

So to my dear frens or sisters (Rehan, Nawal, Nabilah) who’s going to become a doctr, or is a dctr, please remember that u need others to ensure the pt is being taken care off n heal them..u need others to be a good dctrs…U cannot do all the thing by urself..let others do what they know best…n be a good dctr that take people’s feeling into consideration…

bah oh bah...

bah as in banjir in bahasa Kedah means flood with lots of water...hmm...musim hujan sdh bermula..bmkna musim banjir akan tiba..which is kinda blessings in sum ways...but not to people yang rmhnya kena landa bah la...its been much colder n wetter than before..aku sgt suka..sb?sjuk...no need to psg aircon mlm2 sn perspirate like a wet rat n my bby sleeps much better n he smells much nicer in the morning..if not, bau peluh je but still smells like a bby..hehehe..Rizqi past few weeks had been having rashes on his body, face , forehead..in its quite upsetting to see my baby full of red rash...poor boy..so Zulffi n I decided to install airconditioner in our room just for my little prince...my dad said ' Itu baru la namanya sayang anak!!!' heheh...i guess.his skin is quite sensitive like mine...cant be in much heat or sweat a lot as I would develop this rash n eczema..but as an adult I can tolerate the heat n rash more than a bby..he didnt of coz complain but he becomes more restless n fidgeting more n rubbing his cute face with his tiny fingers n hands.. I think if he can scracth his face , he would done so till its raw..huhuhu...

but thats not what Im wanna talk about.. today I came to the offfice with plans to settle my job early n finish whats need to be done n go to ward n see the retrovirus +ve bby ..but when I want to sit in my chair I saw that there's a pool of water beside my PC n my 'telekung' in the bag was soaked...n water was dripping from the ceiling as there is a hole which the contactor that build the ward upstairs recently made for only God's know what purpose was that hole is...
so Hajra n I had to move our table n Pc table n evrythg to avoid from more water dripping n wetting our stuff......huhuhu...so rite now Hjra is facing the front glass door that makes her visible to evryone that pass by including the BOSS..yikessss... n me, situated discretely from the door...having my own little space..huhuhueasy for me to EBM daily..hoorayyyy..hehehe...well, all in all, there's a blessing with this ' bah' hehehe...but its so far (as if..huh!)for me n Hajra to whisper n gossip n plotting sum scheme of our own..hahahah..

sabar je la ngan dentist aku ni..

I am quite annoyed n irritated wif my dentist rite now..I have been wearing my braces almost 4yrs now..before this I was in UKM, having treatment wif my Dr Nora, then when I moved to HUSM, I requested for a trnsfer to HUSM...

its much better as I dont have to flyout to KL evry month n I can just take the time out to go to KPPG..today was the so called appointment..the apmnt before was cancelled a few times as the dentist had to go to PTK exam, student exam bla bla bla...so I was practically waiting n excited for the apmnt today as all my teeth had close the space up... I was hoping the apmnt today, my braces can be removed...as my gingivitis from my prgnancy was not resolving but becoming worse...but she was not there today..she had to go sumwhere n the junior dentist was there replacing her..what can she do...she's a junior only...she saw maybe about 2minutes n said nothing was to be changed..just cont the same treatment..andddddd my pissed me off was the next apmnt is at the end of January...almost 3 whole months...urghhhh..I am really irritated n annoyed rite now...its the cancelation of the apmnt n moving it ahead that makes me mad...how long do I have to wait...its almost 4yrs now..I am sure that the next apmnt will be moved ahead again..huhuhu..

I am totally bored n fedup wif my braces rite now..sumhow,I just wished I ahdnt bother to wear it in the 1st place.....

new post new site

this is the 1st new post as a mum at a new blog page..but actually not so new..I have been writing at this page since the arrival of my baby in the womb..sort of a secret diary..hehehe..and Im so used to write in Frenster blog but lately, sumbody has been tracking my blog..sumbody that I dont wish to have then read whatever it is...I know this blog is accesible to but maybe Its much better than the previous one..I dont know...hmm hope its better...

everybody is out to bank...Im alone at the office..havent EBM yet..in a little while I guess..hmmm.we got our monthly meetg today...BOOOORRRIIIINGGGG... had to hear the bos yack yack n yack..huhuhu...yesterday already got almost 2hrs of lecture...huhu..I almost nod off during the speech in his office..but what to do..just listen n continue to nod..hahahah..very obedient of me...

Im practically salivating for a McD or Burger King burger rite now..dont know why but..feels like eating..huhuu

Rutin baru as IBU ZAFFRAN RIZQI

my new daily routine since becoming a mom

6 pagi : bangun mandi dan solat subuh
6.30 pagi : pam susu dan siapkan botol2 susu dan pakaian Zaffran Rizqi ke
nursery
7 pagi : bersiap ke opis
7.15pagi : kejutkan zaffran dan tukar pampers, bsuh muka dan siapkan
zaffran
7.30 pagi : hnatar Zaffran ke nursery dan masuk opis
8.30 pagi : naik wad tgok pt
11-12 pagi : pam susu
12 – 2 ptg : buat apa2 yang patut..heheheh
2-4 ptg : buat kerja2 yang ptut juga
4 ptg : pam susu lagi utk stok esok ke nursery
4.55 ptg : amik Zaffran dr nursery n balik umah
5.30 ptg : smpi umah..tidurkan Zaffran sekejap. Solat asar dan mndi, pam susu lagi
6.00 ptg : bagi Zaffran minum susu ibu yang berkhasiat tinggi
6.30 ptg : masak makan malam
7-8 mlm : makan malam, layan Zaffran, kemas dapur, solat Magrib
8-9 mlm : solat Isyak, main dengan zaffran, geletek2 dia, agah2 dia smpi dia
penat dan trus ttidur
9 malam ++ : menidurkan diri yang kepenatan.
1 pagi : bangun bg zaffran minum susu ibu sampai puas
4 pagi : bangun bg Zaffran minum susu lagi….
6 pagi : bangun tido for good utk mulakan another day routine…


huhuhu…penatttt kdg2 trasa spt takde ms utk diri sndri…but sgt bahagia n happy

Raya wif my two guys...

this raya, aku dan zulffi raya bertiga wif MZR…aku dr awal puasa dah excited nak balik raya kali ni..ntah napa trasa raya kali ni lbih bmkna..mgkin disbbkan khdiran anak permata hati aku dan zulffi, cucu pertama abumi dan mama, cicit kedua maktok dan wan, cucu sdara kepada Onni lang, wan cik, tok njang dan Wan teh..hahaha dan tak lupa anak sedara kdua kepada sepupu2 aku yang msih skloh rndh dan menengah…kbnyakannya tak tgok lgi rizqi kcuali yang dok dkt2 di kdh je yg dah tgok…so raya kali ni aku lbih excited nak bw Rizqi balik ke kpg..

kami bertolak awal pg Isnin drpd Pasir tumboh..zulffi kja mlm tuh..so blik pg tuh, trus btolak ke Penang..jam sejam kat bulatan pasir mas..tuh tak kuar klntan lagi..huhu..Alhamdulillah spnjg jalan clear..cuma bnyak kete skit je..but ok…Rizqi tido punya la lama drpd naik keta kuar rumah smpi dah nak smpi kat Bertam baru jaga…tak nangis pun..smpi2 ja di rumah, wan abu dan tok ummi dah sbuk menanti nak main ngan cucu…gamat yang amat suma tgopk dia dah mkin bam bam dan pndi ketawa pdhal bru bpisah sebulan aja….seronok aku dpt buka puasa bsama adik2 dan abumi d rmah…n buat ptama kalinya puasa kali ni aku mkn berbuka yang sgt puas hati n btul2 knyg…time lain tuh bkn tak knyg but rs tak puas hti mkn..manataknya..mkn mskn sndri, n smbil meriba anak bbuka puasa..trasa lain bila dpt relax smbil buka rmi2…

soknya slsa btolak blik ke Elephant;s Bridge (titi gajah)..teh dan pak njang dah smpi…smpi ja, sbuk suma nak amik Rizqi..Alin sepupu aku yg pling kecik n mnja dgn aku trus melompat2 tgok aku..dah hmpir sthun aku tak jmpa dia..dulu ms kje di KL hmpir tiap 2,3 mgu skli aku blik ke rmh teh..rindu yg amat pd dia sbnrnya…huhu.dia pun sbuk la berkepit ja ngan aku 2,3 hri tuh…melepas rindu pd aku agaknya…rmi yg sbuk nak jd bby sitter but rmi juga yang sbuk nak kcau as in trik tlga Rizqi, cuit hdg dia, pgg tgn dia..biasala bdk2..curious…last2 dia ngis sb rimas..so aku risau sb ada yg dah melangkah dia, aku bw ngan tilam2 dia ke dpur..haaa…tgokla ibu msk buka pose…buka mlm tuh mkn nsi lmak..sdapppppp..(mcam la tak pnah mkn nsi lmak..heheh) n buka pose lps tuh, hari ini dlm sejarah ada org yg jaaaaraaaaaaaaannng sgt bsuh pggan bsuh pggan..so kami2 lepak la..hehe

pg raya soknya, suma dah bgun awl mndi n bsiap d pg raya..aku antra org yg trakhir bsiap..time org dah siap pki telekong nak solat raya dah..hahaha..yer la..nak mndi anak dulu bru mak bleh mndi…anak nak kn comel2…thun ni Rizqi pki Romper (baju fav ibu dia belikan..) biru hijau mcm ibu dan abah dia…then ms solat raya, aku ltakkan dia sblh aku..thun ni takde org yg Raya awal la plak…so tpksa la bw skli smyg..dia snyap ja..ms smyg, dia gelak2..ingt aku agah dia plak…cuma ms Pak Chaq baca khutbah raya bru dia nangis nak nenen dan trus lena…baik btul bdk ni…slps solat raya spt biasa acara melilit tdg raya, hehehe..mkn da tgkap gmbr satu kluarga…thun ni suma blik raya kcuali Ammar dan rehan di over the laut…pak njang ja beraya d perlis..so takde la gmbr raya Pak Njang skluarga..aku tak ke mana sgt..just pg berya di Bukit Tinggi n then ke rmh Ayuni..lama sgguh aku tak jmpa makayah dia n pg rmh dia..ksibukan msg2 buatkan tpisah jauh..bby bru dia yang bru 7 hri comel..muka mcm Azmil je..mlm raya bdk2 ni main mercun raya sponsored by tokei mercun Pak Njang..hahahah

Raya kdua, aku klm kabut bsiap sb nak balik ke Lenggong ptgnya..aku hnya pergi rmh Aliza n Jihan Jihah sb nak tgok anak diorg yg bru lhir..rmi la kwn2 Rizqi nnti..hopefully pshbtn aku dan mak2 diorg akan btrusan ke anak2 plak…after blik amik brg di Bertam, kami btolak blik LG..sdih sb skjp ja d rmh…thun ni takdan nak p umah Ngah Fuziahm Tok njang , Tok ngah mud bsama2 adik2 n sepupu n melepakkan diri ke shpg cpmplex skjap spt tradisi thun2 lalu…huhu sdihhhh….

smpi di Lg dah dlm 5,6ptg..trus pg ke rmh Cik yah sbb sdara2 nak tgok Rizqi…lps mgrb kami pulang bermalam di Rumah Rehat lenggong..hahaha..ada knangan manis aka dan zulffi di rumah rehat ini raya thun lalu….hehe..smpi bila2 pun msti akan ingt pnya….kan sayang?hehehe
jumaat tghri after beraya ke rmh mak ngah dan pak teh kami trus bgerak balik ke KB knvoi ngan jiji…smpi di Kb dalm 4pm..sian Rizqi dah takmau duduk dah dlm keta sb jammmmmmmm spnjng jalan..dah lama sgt..duduk slah bring salah…ltak2 ja di atas tilam, dia mcm seronok sgt…mcm happy giler sb dpt bring n merengek2 skjap trus tido…aku dan zulffi kpnatan travel..ari2 berjalan kami…sian zaffranrizqi…heheh..mlmnya aku nak kuar g cari KFc ke kat Kubang kerian buat mkn mlam..tp bru nak kuar jalan besar dpn umah tuh, tgok2 jam yg amat truk…trus tak jd aku…trus pthbalik n mlm tuh kami mkn maggi ksg je..sian kamiiii…

but apa pun raya kali ni lain sb raya bsama anak…sb slain pk nak hapy2 kat kg kena pk anak…nak tgkap gmbr bnyak2 mcm sllu kdg2 tak smpt sb anak nangis ke apa…huhuh..tp bnyak la gmbr MZR thun ni..duit raya pun banyak….hihihi

dulu dan sekarang..

lain rasanya bila beranak kecil..memang ssguhnya khidupan mmg berubah..all the usual routine habis lari..terpaksa di atur semula rutin harian dan hidup…

dulu, bgun pagi siap brg aku sndri ja…sekejap ja..kalo bgun lmbt pun takpa lagi sb msih smpt..tp skrg, kena bgun awal nak siapkan brg dia nak p nurseri n siapkan botol susu dia, n perah susu utk stok hntr nseri…

dulu kuar rumah 750pg, siap pun lambt ja…tp sekarang,dtang keja pgi kena kuar n siap awal sb 1st nak kena hntr dia nurseri..2nd kdg pagi sblm pg keja nak kena susukan dia dulu..if tak, nnti MZR takmau dok dalam car seat…n aku pun rs mcm tkilan ja if pg tak smpt nak main2 n agah MZR n susukan dia…tringat2 je dia…

dulu aku park d blkg opis..dkat..jalan sikit je..then skrg,dtg keja hari2 kena parking dkat park pelawat sb senang nak kluar lunch nak pg tgok MZR di nurseri ataupun nak balik ptg nnti nak amik dia n tpksa jalan jauhhhhh sikit menempuh panas mentari…hmmm..no wonder berat aku trun..hahahah..

dulu, lunch hour esp ms pose ni bleh la tido kejap atau lelapkan mata..but skrg, kena pg wad utk pam susu ataupun pam dkat bilik…ikut mana yg rajin…hehehe

dulu balik ja petang2 smpi umah 5.05ptg,,skrg 5.30ptg..kdg awal drpd tu skit..

dulu balik keja bleh trus sggah PKT beli brg umah atau singgah beli air tebu d tepi jalan balik..tpi skrg kena stret balik umah takle singgah2..sian MZR lama2 dlm keta..panas…n kdg dia dah tidoo..(dia naik keta ja tidoo..takdak keja lain…huhuhu) sian nak angkt2 dia..

dulu, balik umah bleh lepak2, tgok tv dulu, then bru mndi…skrg balik umah melayan MZR…susukan dia, main ngan dia, mndi solat n siap nak msk…krg dia takmau duduk, abah dia kena jaga…mkn pun beribakan dia…tmsuk dlm bulan pose ni….huhuhu

dulu, mlm2 lps solat lepak2 tgok tv smpi lewat mlm atau lepak baca buku, guling2 atas katil hayati novel aku tuh..but skrg, lps isyak ja kdg trus tido dah sb penat n esok pg nak bgun awal pg plak…

dulu, bila2 bleh baca buku…tak kira ms n tmpt…wknd pun lepak ja…skrg, nak baca buku pun kdg takde ms…satu buku bhari nak hbis..nak baca pun time dia tido or baik prgai tak meragamm….huhuu..ada kala ms tgh nyusu smbil tuh la aku nk mbaca pun…nk wat cmana..manada ms len…tpksa curi2 masa…

TAPIIII…dulu balik rumah buat hal n keja msg2..kalo zulffi keja, dok la sorg2 kat umah..sunyi…tpi sekarang, ada la dgr suara bdk nangis n ketawa bila agah dia…lain rasanya..n happier…

dulu berdua sekarang bertiga..

dulu pergi jalan, pegang tgn suami, skrg jalan pegang anak..heheheh..

dulu pikir diri sendiri je apa2 pun, but skrg pkir anak dulu baru pikir diri sndri..huhuhu

dulu, angan2 nak pegang anak sndri, tpi skrang dah dapat pegang anak sendiri…

dulu atau skrg, dua 2nya indah….

BTW, MZR tuh is Muhammad Zaffran Rizqi…hehehe…our famly initial for him..nama pnjg sgt…hehe

Baru Kini kutahu...

selama aku berusia 26thun ini, aku tidak pernah merasakan betapa aku berterimakasih sgt pd ummi esp and abu yang dah bsrkan aku slma ni smpi aku mjdi aku yg skrg ini spt yang aku rasakan skrg…selama 9bulan aku mngndung, pelbagai perkara yang aku lalui,pelbagai perasaan yang aku rasakan. penat lelah,rs tidak selesa dan mcm2 lagi yang aku lalui slama 9bulan itu ,tak dpt aku bygkan apa yang ummi lalui smsa mgndgkan aku…ditambah pula slps aku melalui pglman bersalin yang kdgkala buat aku ngeri dan trauma, aku btmbh2 insaf..btapa besarnya pgorbanan ummi mgndg dan melahirkan aku….ditmbh pula dgn adik2 aku sramai 6org itu…aku insaf dan aku rs seribu satu pnyesalan bila aku memikirkan selama aku membesar betapa aku kdgkala marah atau melawan ckp umi, buat umi kecil hati dsbbkan kata2 aku dan prgai aku…betapa berdosanya aku….Ya Allahhh……..
dlm usia sbulan Rizqi ini, apa yg aku lalui hnya sdkit bbnding apa yg ummi lalui mbesarkan aku dan adik2..

bkn mudah rupanya mjaga anak..mmg bila dilihat baby sebegitu comel dan kiut bila tidur atau buka matanya.tapi bila dia mjadi tgjwb kita slama 24jam, 7hari smggu, 30hari sebulan 365hari setahun, tanpa henti…hanya tuhan yang tahu..bila mlm2 kadang Rizqi menangis tak mahu tidur, kembung perut, asyik nak mnyusu tanpa henti dan kjap2 jeluak susu sb prutnya tidak selesa..bila telah disapu pelbagai minyak pun msih tidak mahu lena tidur…buatkan aku juga tidak dpt lena tidur dan turut berjaga..ada mlm, ummi tmnkan aku tlg jaga smpi dia ttidur dan ummi suruh aku tidur dulu..bila dia bjaga malam, abis satu rumah tidak tidur bsama..’ammar trut bjaga mendodoikan Rizqi..kdg2 aku dodoikan dia sorg2 sb tak nak sshkan ummi bgun mlm mjaga Rizqi..ckuplah ummi pnat di siang hari mgemas rmh dan mjaga aku dan Rizqi…kdg bila aku taktahu nak buat apa dah, bby nangis, aku juga trut menangis..sb aku sdh tlmpau letih dan mengantuk dan taktahu nak buat apa lagi…nak mngadu pd zulffi, dia jauh dan dia juga smstinya pnat bkerja..hmmm..

org kata waktu pntg waktu utk berehat sckupnya….tp kdg2 org dtg nak tgok bby..kita bru tidurkan bby n nak berehat, tak jd nak berehat..takpela tak kisahla tu .org dtg nak meraikan kita dan anak kita. tapi yang aku taktahn, bila ada sorg makcik ni dtg satu hari tu, kebetulan Rizqi mlm tu tak tidur n tak brapa sht..aku bru dpt tidur kan dia..ttba dia dtg, n sbuk kjutkan bdk tu bangun sb nak tgok dia buka mata…mcm2 dia buat spaya dia bgun..aku nak mrh , dia org tua,dlm hti ni, geram ja rasa..dah tu, bila dia bgun n nangis trus bg kat aku…aku dlm hati, gerammmmmmm ja rs..aku bru nak bring slps bapa lama nak tidurkan bby..iskiskisk…sabar je laa…

tp bila mlht wjh comel dia yg tsnyum, n kdg2 mcm2 prgainya, buat aku thibur sgt..kdg dia buat muka bila aku nak susukan dia,atau bila aku cium2 pipi dia, dia mengeliat sb rimas atau geli, semuanya buat aku tersenyun dan ketawa..bila aku bringkan dia atas dada n aku peluk erat,rs satu prsaan yg tak dpt aku ungkpkan..bila aku mnyusukan dia, tgnnnya memegang jri aku atau rnti aku buat aku rs satu prsaan syahdu dan kasih sgt pd ank ini…xkisahla kalau stkt smlm dua tidak lena bilamna dia mberikan aku sejuta keriangan dlm hidupku..aku msih ingt, pd ms awal2 aku mlhirkn dia, aku hnya mlihat dia dan membelai dia dgn satu prsaan yg ksg..mgkin sb aku msih pnt n ltih stlh skit bsalin sbgitu lma..tp smkin kuat bdn aku, smkin lma aku bsama dia, bru timbul satu prsaan kasih yg mdalam pdnya….trasa aku tidak mmpu hidup jika apa2 blaku pdnya..mgkin itu ertinya ksih seorg ibu..bru aku mngerti erti kasih seorg ibu itu…aku sggup melakukan apa saja utk anak aku itu…ptutlah Rasulullah bpesan utk mgutamakan ibu dahulu sblm ayah..stlh suma ini aku lalui, baru aku phm dan mngerti semuanya…

kini aku tahu, knapa seorang ibu itu kenal dan tahu apa saja mngenai anaknya tnpa perlu anaknya ucapkan atau katakan..mcm ‘Ammar kata pada aku, "awak paham ke bunyi dia nangis tuh nak apa?" jawapannya ya…sbulan aku mjaga dia sdh ckup buat aku knal erti tangisan dan bunyinya..aku tahu bila bnyi dia hnya mgeliat bila dlm tidur atau bru bgun tidur, aku tahu bnyi dia bila dia nak susu atau hnya nak aku angkat dan pluk dia smpi tlena, aku tahu bnyi dia bila dia tak slsa sb lmpin bsh atau kmbung perut..even bila aku tidur, aku akan tjaga even bila dgr dia jeluak…ssguhnya tuhan itu Maha Kaya, Dia berikan ibu itu satu instinct yang sbgitu hebat utk bond kan anak dan ibu itu…..

aku bsykur diberikan peluang dan anugerah ini utk mjdi seorg ibu…tnpa apa yg tlah aku lalui, tidak mgkin aku akan appreciate ummi spt skrg…ssghnya, ibu itu anugerah terindah dalam hidup…tanpa ibu…siapala kita….

Zaffran Rizqi..the new found joy of my life...

Muhammad Zaffran Rizqi..lahirnya pada jam 5.49 petang di HUSM pada hari Jumaat, 4 Julai 2008, bersamaan 1 Rejab 1429H. lahirnya ke dunia slps hampir 12 jam aku bertarung dengan keskitan yang tidak pernah aku rskan sblm ini..aku tidak sgka aku akan bslin pd hari Jumaat..alhamdulillah syukur pdNYa…mgkin rezki aku krna aku mmg bniat utk bslin pd hari Jumaat kalau boleh..skiranya apa2 berlaku, Hari Jumaat, hari yang baik…mlm sblmnya aku kluar dgn zulffi makan di Su Tomyam..aku begitu tringin nak mkn mee bandung di Mee Kg Pek but as Zulffi nak mkn d Su Tomyam, tak kisahla…mlm tuh, hujan..sjuk sja cuaca..dpt mkn juga mee bndung versi tak original n air ciku yang kaw..kaw pnya..(tringt pd EL)..hehehe..’ammar yang dtg sjak hari slasa kluar dgn kwn2 dia d usm..mlmnya aku dah tido lmbt mbaca buku crita..mghbiskn buku Nora Robert yg bru aku dpt dr MPH…abis baca buku dah lewat mlm…tak tahu pkul brapa aku tlelap…nak tdo awal pun sblmnya rs tak mngntk n tak slsa as d hujg2 prgnncy ni, mmg aku rs tak lena tido n tak slsa…zulffi masih main game di bwh…pkul brapa dia msuk tido pun aku tak sure..

3am, aku tbngun sb rs skit sgt perut…aku k toilet bbrapa kali..aku ingt aku fd poisoning..mgkin sb mee bndg sblm tu or kuih ketayap yg aku mcm 5bji sorg ptg smlmnya.hehehe..tringt pd Kak za….zulffi bgun shur pgnya..n aku mnta dia crikan pil chee kit tck aun di 7E sb skit sgt prut…slps subuh, skitnya trasa bkurgn bt dtg on n off..aku bbring dgn bsndr n tlelap sbntr2..bila skit dtg, aku aku tjaga…n skitnya pun smcm ja rs..lnguh d pngg n bby pun tak aktif…rs mcm cramp ja prut..8am+ aku call ummi, bgtau skit perut..aku tnya ummi tnda2 skit nak bslin..takde pglmn katakan…bila ummi bgtau, aku dah rs ni mcm nak bslin.ummi kata, if bslin ari ni, alhamdulillah..sb ummi dok doa2 bslin di awal rejab..awal bulan, org kata anak yang lhir tu, baik prgainya..umi dok doa spya tak lhir di hjg2 bulan..tah kata umi,org tua2 kata,hjg bulan, ms bulan tgh turun,anak yg lahir akan sdkit tpgruh dgn tarikan bulan ke apa tah…kurg elok la..tah..itu pndgn org tua2..

since skit dlm 20minit apart, zulffi n amar pg k pasr tani bli lauk n mkn pg..aku hnya mkn sbji apam balik n sgls susu…bila skitnya dtg, tak dpt nak describe mcmana skitnya rs…mcm nak tcbut pgg pun ada…bdiri salah, bring lagi slah..lnguh pgg taktahu nak describe.zulffi tlg gsk2 blkg aku utk legakan skit…10+ aku ajak zulffi ke husm..sb rs skit mkin kuat…sblm aku kluar bilik, aku cium tgn zulffi minta ampun dan maaf atas smua slh silap aku slama aku jd istri dia…aku minta dia halalkan mkn minum aku slma ni.manatau aku tak bksmptn lg..smpi je di labour room, lif tgh renovate, tpksa la naik tgga k tgkat satu nak ke labour room.smpi ja, trus msuk blik screening…doktr buat CTG n VE..dah 6cm..trus admit labour room..since labour room pnuh, tpksa juga aku tggu hampir 1pm bru dpt blik…tahan la aku skit kat atas kerusi d blik screening tuh..hnya tuhan yang tahu skitnya…bila skit aku genggam pakaian bby yang aku pgg utk ke blik bslin..

by 1pm, bila aku dah msuk blik, doktr cek dah 8cm…so doktr pecahkan air utk cptkan aku bslin…zulffi msuk tmnkan aku..dia tak pg jumaat sb tkut aku akan bslin dlm ms tdekat..adanya dia d sisi buat aku rs kuat skit mghadapi kskitan tuh…by 4pm, still tak smpi 10cm lg..still ada skit lagi utk smpi 10cm kata dktor…skitnya, hanya tuhan yang tahu…mgkin btul org kata skit bslin skit kedua truk slps mati…aku tak dpt nak gmbrkan apa yg aku rs…pgg rs mcm nak luruh stiap kali skit dtg..kalau boleh rs nak cbut ja pnggang aku spya tak skit..aku dah la jnis org yg tak thn skit…tgn zulffi aku genggam smpi pucat lesi..aku tahu msti dia pun lnguh n skit tgn..bila tlmpau skit sgt, aku peluk n rgkul leher dia, cuba meminjam kekuatan dia utk aku lalui skit yg aku rs…dia tak lepas mulut bacakan doa, ayat kursi slwt,surah lazim k tlga aku utk bgi kkuatan pd aku…bila aku dah tak larat sgt, aku hnya baca dlm hti sja..saat2 tu, segala dosa2 lalu bagaikan tbayang di mata dan kpala aku..dlm hati aku bdoa," kalau ini caranya untuk Tuhan hapuskan dosa2 aku, aku redha….takpela..sekiranya apa2 blaku, biarlah aku pergi dlm keadaan dosa2 aku thpus".. air zam zam n kurma yang Hjra bw dr Mekah, hnya itu aku minum n mkn utk pg kkuatan..tq Hajra,,appreciate sgt…dlm pd ms aku tgh skit tu, ms trasa bgikan tidak bergerak..trsa lmbt sgt waktu bajalan..bila tdgr dr bilik2 sblh org lain bslin, trasa ngeri pun ada, but bila dgr suara bby nangis, aku pjuk hti aku dgn kata, kejap ja lagi aku pun bleh pgg bby aku juga…tbygkan wajah bby yang aku taktahu macaman buat aku kuat sbntr…tp bila skit dtg, suma smgt td bgikan hilang d angin lalu..hnya zulffi di sisi utk bri kekuatan pd aku…tbyg ummi abu di rmh yg pstinya tgh resah mnnti berita dr aku..syukur aku dah smpt mnta ampun maaf drpd abumi sblm tuh…

then by 4.30pm aku dah rs nak push…zulffi pun dah ada slps dia kuar solat..bpggkan smgt dia, aku cuba utk push..but contraction aku tak sekuat sblmnya..skitnya dtg skjap2…mula ada 3 SN dtg, then doktr dtg, but hnya tgok n coach…ada HO yang bru msuk 3,4org..dahla semua lelaki..tpksa la aku thn malu n segan..but skit nak bslin mgatasi sglanya…then mkin lama mkin rmi doktr dtg..all in all suma ada 8org..since aku staff n this is the 1st delivery, n org lain takde dah yg skit nak bslin..so suma ttmpu pd aku…by 5.30pm ,bby still tak kluar.so doktr tpksa forcep tkut bby lmas…baby dah mula tachy..kpla dah nmpk but aku mmg dah tak btnaga utk push lg…trasa sdh hbis tnaga aku..ms satu jam tuh, sgalanya tbyg d kpla aku…apa yg aku pk kan just nak bby lhir ja…tak mau pk apa2 lg..mulut aku dah kering n aku dah tlmpau pnt utk buat apa2…bila doktr HO yang bru blik dr mesir n tak penah cucuk jarum ke tgn pt sblm ni, cucuk aku 4kli bru msuk jrum utk drip pun aku diam ja..takde nak mrh..tu mmg tndanya aku tlmpau tak larat n dah tak kisah apa2 dah..kalo tak, maunya kna bising ngan aku…cuuck smpi 4kli bru msuk…lbam2 tgn aku…5,49pm, bila bby kluar je, n di ltak atas prut aku, aku hnya tgok je..sb bby tak mngis, diorg trus bw utk suction n skjp kmdian aku dgr dia ngis..kuat suaranya….bila aku tnya doktr bby boy or girl, doktr ckp nnti dia bgtau..skrg dia nak settlekan aku dulu..bnyak jg kn jhit dah sb forcep..nsib aku buka speck aku,if tak , aku akan nmpk all the blood n jarum n evrytg else dgn jelas..sure aku lg trauma lps tuh..aku nmpk kabur2 pun aku trauma dah..huhu..bila dktr dah nak setel jhit, diorg bwkan bby pd aku..tnjuk n bgtau aku dpt bby boy…aku hnya prsan yang bby putih n rmbut lebat..then diorg bw kpda zulffi utk diazankan…slps dah settle sumanya, n siap nak hntr ke wad staf, bru bby di bri pd aku..SN bwkan aku milo n suapkan straw pd aku utk aku sisip..aku rs btrimakasih sgt atas layann baik all the dktrs n nurses.smpt aku psn pd dktr n misi suruh say tq to all yg dah tlg aku td… misi suruh aku mnyusukan bby dulu, but aku mmg tak larat sgt nak bgun apatah lagi nak riba bby..aku hnya mmpu tbring n peluk dia rpt ke dada aku shaja..aku pgg n usap rmbutnya, pgg pipi gebunya rs nak menangis sb sbak..tak sgka aku dah jd ibu…bby tido lena ja.spt tidak ada apa2 blaku d skllgnya..

on the way ke wad, ttba dia ngis..pnya la kuat suara dia…smpi di wad , aku dah settle down..mama, nini n zulffi dah ada skli..nini sbuk la tgok anak sdra bru..zulffi aku sruh blik dulu buka pose..sian dia..hnya buka ngan roti ja..aku bring ja..tak mmpu nak bgun atau buat apa2…ltih sgt rs..trasa spt sluruh tnaga aku dah dispent d labour room..aku tak pnah rs pnat mcm tuh..rs tak bdaya sgt….

after zulffi blik mkn, mndi, dia dtg blik tmn kan aku di wad..dia bncuhkan milo, suapkan aku roti ksg cicah milo..hnya tu yang aku mkn mlm tu slain kurma courtesy of Hajra.hehehe..ms zulffi blik, Hjra was the 1st to come n see the bby..bby dgn aku, but bila aku alih nak bg hajra pgg ja, dia nangis..kuat lak tuh..so tak dpt la hjra pgg..bekeng…mcm aku..hahahaha. Alhamdulillah zulffi ada tmnkan aku mlm tu..aku btuah ada suami yg sgt prihatin n amik brat…dia la tlg aku bersihkan bdn, pimpin ke toilet suma n amik brg2…dpt msuk wad staf, lbih slsa wpun bilik dua org pnuh n tpksa msuk blik 4org, but tak kisahla.sb jauh lbih slsa dpd wad biasa..
mlm ptama mjdi ibu, bby asyik ngis je…mgkin sb aku tak pndi nak susukan, or susu tak kluar..aku pun tak tahu,pk2 blik mmg aku naive rs wpun dah baca all about breastfeedg..but tak de pglmn..tdo kjap, jg ngis..mgkin dia lpr…aku n zulffi dua2 pnt tak dpt rht sgt…tgh mlm slin pmpers dia, pun ngis..sian org sblh.apa nk buat..huhuhu..

soknya dia tido je..tak bgun nyusu.aku sshti gak..but kjut2 dia takmau bgun.misi dah nak bg susu btol.then abumi smpi ptgt tu dpd penang…ummi tgok aku tgh nak susukn bby, ummi agkt bby n ajar aku nk pgg n susukn cara btul..bru la dia mnyusu n bgun…since aku kn forcep. ahad bru aku leh kuar…tu pun ptg bru kuar sb bby mcm kuning skit..alhmdllh aku kja wad paed, sngla aku trus kntek dktr paeds suruh tgokkn..if tak lg lmbt blik..huhuh.. rmi kwn2 dtg tgok bby..ada kt mcm muka aku, ada kt mcm muka zulffi…apa2 pun, yg pntg suma dah slmt..pk2 blik, aku spt trauma dgn apa yg aku lalui..mgkin lm juga kot utk aku lupakn…takthu la…tgok la cmna..huhuu..yg pntg zaffran rizqi, slmt n sht….yg aku tggu bbln2 dah lhir…msih pjg pjlnn aku dan dia….tpulg pd aku utk mcoraknya pula….ibu sayangggg rizqi….

Things that change when you have a baby...

Things that change when you have a baby

1. You finally stop to smell the roses, because your baby is in your arms. - he smells soooo good eventhough he is sweaty n full of 'jeluak' hahahha

2. Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid.- yerp...afraid that I cant be a good mum n wife at the same time...

3. The sacrifices you thought you made to have a child no longer seem like sacrifices.- its a pleasure n joy actually...

4. You respect your body ... finally - hmmm..so trueeee

5. You respect your parents and love them in a new way- yeah...my love for them grows more n more esp for my mum...huhuhuh

6. You find that your baby's pain feels much worse than your own- when he cries in pain, Im also feels like crying...huhuhu

7. You believe once again in the things you believed in as a child - the world is pretty n everybody is nice..

8. You lose touch with the people in your life whom you should have banished years ago- dont have time maaaaa for others

9. Your heart breaks much more easily - not sure yet..

10. You think of someone else 234,836,178,976 times a day- dont have time to think of myself..

11. Every day is a surprise- evryday is a new joy

12. Bodily functions are no longer repulsive. In fact, they please you. (Hooray for poop!)

13. You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself - coz he's much cutier..hahaha

14. You become a morning person - I hate it but I had tooo..hohohoho

15. Your love becomes limitless, a superhuman power - Im a working, breastfeeding, superwife and mum...hahaha

16.You discover how much there is to say about one tooth

17.You finally realize that true joy doesn't come from material wealth - I can deal with no jeweleries but not without my babe...

18.You'd rather buy a plastic tricycle than those shoes that you've been dying to have - so true...in fact with me, the pump n stroller etc..hohoho..I want that CARLO RINO shoes that I've been eyeing since raya...huhuhu

19.You realize that although sticky, lollipops have magical powers- it sure would shut the child up..hahaha

20.You don't mind going to bed at 9 p.m. on Friday night - sooo tired..what to dooo....

21.Silence? What's that - it's a bonus to have some quiet time in a day...

22.You realize that the 15 pounds you can't seem to get rid of are totally worth having - Im losing it..slowly..hehehe

23.You discover an inner strength you never thought you had

24.You no longer rely on a clock — your baby now sets your schedule - lets throw away the clock..its making me wake up when I want to sleep more..hahaha

25.You give parents with a screaming child an 'I-know-the-feeling' look instead of a 'Can't-they-shut-him-up?' one - hmmmm I cant help thinkg about me in that situation when I came across the scene recently...

26.You take the time for one more hug and kiss even if it means you'll be late - had to kiss the boy first..

27.You learn that taking a shower is a luxury - if not, just scrub scrub n rinse..huhuhu

28.You realize that you can love a complete stranger...

mummy's world

something to ponder about : ngeee

Somebody said it takes abot six weeks to get
to get back to normal after you've had a baby

That somebody doesn't know that once you're a mother
"Normal" is a history..

Somebody said "good' mother never raise
their voices

That somebody never come out the back door just
in time to see her child hit a golf ball through the neighbour's kitchen window.