Love is not about finding the right person,but creating the right relationship.
It’s not about how much love you have in the beginning,
but how much love you build till the end…..
yesterday eve, I brought or should I say Zulffi drove me, Zaffran, lang , ngah, n abg to Pntai Irama..saja nak p jalan ke pntai...kami ni org kata jnis Orang Darat..pntang jmpa pntai..main air mcm tak pnah jmpa air laut ja..hahah..mgkin sb dr kcik lgi abumi sllu bw kami p penang mndi pntai kat Annan love Bhara site tuh....hahaha...so this was MZR 2nd trip to pntai..sblum ni ms abis ja pntang aku dah bw dia p mndi pntai ngan uncles n aunties...
MZR ttido dlm keta on the way pg pntai...smpi ja kat pantai, dia muka chommmm ja...takmau snyum takmau gelak atau buat expresi apa2...msam ja....mgkin sb kena kjut kot atau bdn tak sht ..taktahu napa...n mgkin juga sb Zaffran jnis kalo tmpt yg dia tak knal or tak biasa, dia akan dok snyap ja...dia jnis observe dulu..bila dah biasa bru dia akan aktif n gelak2...mgkin la...ms mula2 letak kki dia atas tanah, dia mcm geli sb pasir tu basah n lmbik n bila air laut dtg kena kaki dia mcm plik.kaki dia tjengket2 atas pasir..geli kot...hahaha
but ms ibu dok sbuk posing amik gmbr ombak kuat tsimbah zaffran n ibu..abis basah baju..ibu yg tak bw baju n tak bcdg nak mndi pun bsh..nsib zaffran ada bju salin...hahaha..abah trus bising sb zaffran basah nanti dmm or mkin truk slsma..lps tukar bju zaffran dok ja ngan abah smbil tgok bdk2 main air n org main layang2...mcm takjub ja dia tgok layang2 yg mcm2 bntuk bpusing n gerak sana sini kat langit biru...khusyuk ja dia tgok..... pak njang Zaffran mndi smpi puas..mmg mcm duyung tak jmpa laut lama....hahahaibu ikut hati nak terjun juga..but bila pk baju takdak pastu sian anak nnti bsah..huhuu..tak jadi la...malu pun ada sb kat KLNTAN ni org pompuan jrg mndi...mai pntai stkt dok tpi benteng mkn keropok ja..ish..rugi rugi...
Ngah lang abng balik arini...diorg btolk td pg but aku takde di rmh sb aku kena keje...zulffi je yg tlg hntrkan diorg do muka pntu...ms naik kete pg td pun sdih ja rs dlm hati sb aku tahu lps ni aku takkan jmpa Ammar lg...probably end this yr if umur msih pnjng...tpisah dek bbrpa lautan dan ribuan KM..sdih...sb my little bro is getting bigger, more matured n not the so little boy I can pulas tlnga bila nakal mcm dulu...
ms aku sbuk balaja kat Kisas n UKM aku agak sbuk ngan life aku sndri n with my things yg dok serabutkan kpla aku, aku tak smpt nak rapat sgt n amik kisah sgt psl dia...then bla aku dah mula keje ada la juga aku p tgok dia weeknd di SMAPK n bila dia dah p nak p KOREA aku dah pndh ke KB...huhuhu...so skrg jmpa pun sthun skli kot...aku rs since ms dlm pntg, aku jd lbih rapat ngan abg n lbih kenal dia in n out sb ms tu dia dok d rmh n bnyak tlg aku, smbg ngan aku, gosip n melawak ngan aku..bila dia g KL meetg la , kem la, reunion la apa tah lg, make me actually counting the days smpi dia blik sb aku sunyi dok umah..huhu...the man he become, make me respect him more as an adult n love him more as my bro...hmm...aku plan nak smpn cuti bnyak2 thun ni so hjg thun or awal JAn dpan bila dia balik cuti aku plan nak balik penang n stay di sana with him n my other sibs lama2...huhu..sb silap2 hari, kitrg mkn nsi mnyak plak hjg thun ni..bohooohoooo...harap2nya tak jd la.sb I still want him to be my bro...just my bro not sumone else...he will always be my little bro yg aku ngasuh kcik2, yg buas memanjat sana sini, jatuh meja smpi kena jahit, kena timpa motor Pakcik Azman, yg suka main basikal tgh2 trik mtahri dgn beskal kuningbhitam dia tuh, yg smpi buat dia 'masak'..huhuhu..
ngah pun tah bila akan jumpa lg..probably Raya Sept nnti kot..huhuu..wpun tpisah dek gunung ganang n segala hiway yg pnjng, but InsyAllah ttp akan jmpa gak... sdih sgt rs arini..rs ada hole dlm hati aku ni yg mcm sepi n ksg ja...blik ptg ni,rmh aku akan kmbali sepi tnpa gelak tawa adik2...n bila tah lg akan dpt kumpul rmi2 lagi...dtgnya skjap sgt...tak smpt n tak puas aku nak bmnja dan bw berjalan n p cari sate...lang...nextime awak dtg kkk p cari sate ok..sian awakk kmpunann nak mkn sate klntan....huhuhu..
dah lama aku tak menulis...sjak last 2 weeks aku blik ke Aloq staq tgok wan, trus diam mbisu...bkn takde idea atau apa yg nak ditulis but keadaan tak mgizinkan...last week aku blik dr ALoq staq aku dmm..n bdn rs tak sht n tak larat sgt...so the whole week last week tgok pt pun mcm ikhlas tak ikhlas ja...sb bdn yg mmg tak lrat n tak sht...sllunya bila dmm shri dua dah ok but skrg bila ada anak yg memerlukan phtian, dgn tido yg tak ckup dan rehat yg kurang, mmg lmbt skit nak baik dmm..mgu ni Alhamdulillah...wpun hidung msih berair n batuk msih kuat but getting better n stronger..tmbhn smlm Ngah, Lang , Abng dtg ke Kb..so ada la org yg tlg mgasuh Zaffran...dptla rehat skit..huhuhuhu...best dpt bkumpul rmi2 cmtuh..bgosip dan bergelak ktwa, joking psl bnda yg hnya kitrg je yg phm...huhu...I miss all that moment together...saat ms bsama2 ms kcik2 dulu...pdhal ms kcik2 dulu sllu gaduh ngan lang, ngah n amar..kalo dulu kami suka pggil lang Ketuhar gelombang Mikro sb nama dia eja Kauthar, amar lak, kdg2 pggil buah tamar, kdg2 pelepah tamar...ngan dulu pggil tosnam...hahahha..lawak plak pk..diorg pggil aku roket kalo nak skitkan hati..dulu aku ngan lang pntg dekat..msti nak gduh..sb lang ni ratu air mata..sikti2 nangis...so aku n ngah mls kwan..tp dah bsar ni ngan lang la aku rapat..gosip mcm2...huhuhu...kalo aku pk2, aku nak saat2 lama dulu ms suma msih kcik n together in abumi's house, suma org bsama n tak mmpunyai life msg2 yg memisahkan smua yg hanya bleh bjmpa stahun bbrpa kali shaja...hmm...I wish things would stay the same...huhuhu
I got this from the usm webmail.. and the pict http://picasaweb.google.com/almiaaraj/tGDYqD#
doesnt need words to describe the situation over there..what have we done to help them?tepuk dada tanya selera..
Don't blame Hamas for Gaza conflict
Abu Mubarak | Jan 7, 09 4:04pm
The reason given by the Israel for the carnage in Gaza is Hamas. The objective given by the Israel for their invasion in Gaza is to destroy Hamas' ability to launch Qassam rockets towards Southern Israel .
This is my question to the Israelis. If Hamas is the root cause for the conflict, then what had caused Hamas to exist in the first place? When Israel occupied the land and drove Palestinians by the millions away from their homeland, there was neither Hamas nor Qassam rockets. There were only poor ordinary Palestinians begging for their lives. Even then, Palestinians were massacred by large numbers.
Remember, when Palestinians started their popular intifadhah, they were just throwing stones towards the Israeli soldiers. It was because they were just throwing stones that nobody listened to or cared about them. Had the world listened to them back then, I doubt there would be any need for them to start using explosive belts.
When they started using explosive belts, they were called 'terrorists' . You see, once you're labelled terrorist, no amount of diplomatic deeds would undo it. Not even when you won a fair democratic election by a landslide. Not even when you have proven your ability to maintain unilateral truce and quiet for years.
Not even when you're needlessly willing to share power with political opponents for the sake of unity. What you would get in return are unprovoked raids, political abductions and unending sieges and conspiracies to bring you down from power.
Palestinians have been under brutal occupation for decades. They were forced to give up their rights for peace. Under any occupation, resistance movements are always natural. Any rightly guided mind definitely cannot expect otherwise. In fact, resistance is the only right thing to do when you're occupied.
Hamas and 'Jihad Islam' are only natural fruits of a long brutal occupation and nothing more. Even if Hamas and Jihad Islam are crushed to their bones, resistance is always the only right thing to do under the occupation and Israel has to face that.
Then you may ask me, 'Why can't Hamas behave like Fatah?' Firstly, even if Hamas were to behave like Fatah, what difference would it make towards the Israel attitude? Israel would always play tricks and give excuses.
The Zionist regime decided to stop bilateral talks with the Palestinian Authority since 2000, long before Hamas won the PLC election in 2005. Secondly, as the 2005 election results rightly show, Fatah is not the answer for most Palestinians.
In fact, for most Palestinians, Fatah is more a problem than a solution. Fatah was not seen by most Palestinians as representing resistance, but more as selling out on Palestinians rights for their own comforts and worldly gains.
The Palestinians, for decades, have tried throwing ideas on various negotiating tables, they have tried throwing stones, they have tried explosive belts, they have tried Qassam rockets - all in the name of a resistance movement. And resistance is the right of all occupied people.
The only thing to blame for the conflict in Palestine is the Israeli occupation, and only this occupation, and nothing else. It is certainly not the resistance, not Hamas, and not Qassam rockets. Anyone blaming anything or anyone else is playing to the tune of the Zionist regime.
early this morning Ummi sms me,telling me that Wan(my grabdpa) is admitted to ICU at KMC dt stroke..he's paralysed on the right side..as Zaffran was not sleeping quite well, I couldnt sleep afterwrds n kept thniking baout wan...this is his 2nd stroke..the 1st one was a few days bfore my weddings..that one was a mild one..this one??im not sure....
i dnt know whther i am sad or anthg as Im numb inside but my tears kept falling when i thnk of him..from my childhood days to the present days...I guess i am sad..but working in the hsptal when u see diseases, sick people, death all yr round, its a routine sumhow u tend to keep ur feelings of sdness deep inside u I guess..or I am alwys in denial that all is gonna be well n ok..i dnt know...
whtever it is, I pray that wan survive this one n turn out well...
now dia suka ketawa n gelak..mgekek2 ketawa bila diagah... esp bila kena geletek bwh ketiak atau tiup prut
Zaffran at 5mths
dan bila bercakap dgn dia, mcm paham ja..n esp bila nak tgkap gmbr dia, bila pgg ke kamera dah tau agaknyaorng nak amik gmbr dia..siap2 sngeh dah bg nmpk gigi dua btg tuh...
Zaffran at 6mths
kalo org tgok dia, sume akan tgur kening dia yg cntik terletak..hitam mcm letak celak aja...inherited from Ibu's side of the fam I guess..heheh..n bila di tmbh dgn snyuman n sngehihan dia skrg, mkin comel n hensem anak ibu ni..hahaha..tmbh plak bila sikat rmbut belah tepi ngan minyak baby oil, mkin hensem lagi.....ni hasil didikan abah la tu...hehe..Puji anak sndri la aku nih..hohoho..
sume bnda nak dicapai skrg...pntg nmpk bnda2 plik, suma nak cpai n msuk dlm mulut... cerdik budak ni..moga bsar jd org yg beriman dan beramal soleh...aminnn
Zaffran skrg suka betul makan..kalo riba dia n makan dia mesti sbuk nak capai juga pinggan mangkuk apa yang ada atas meja tu..if tak dapat, abis plastik meja dia nak tarik msuk mulut..smlm aku mkn kuew tiaw smbil riba dia..evry suapan kuewtiaw kat mulut aku dia nganga sb ingt aku nak suap ke dlm mulut dia...sian sgguh..last2 aku bg biskut teething bg dia pgg n mkn sndri...kalo nmpk ja aku siapkan bubur or puri dlm mgkuk dia, dia dah mjerit2 tak sbr nak mkn..smntra nak pki kan bip, nak dduk, dia dah mjerit2 bunyi mcm masa dia nak mnyusu..Zaffran ada satu bnyi kalo dia nak mnyusu..bunyi tak sbr..kalo dia bnyi cmtu, dah tau dia nak mnyusu la tu..hehehe. minum air lak nak mnum dlm cawan mcm org bsar..bgi dlm botol msti takmau minum..dia baling ja botol..bila aku mnum, dia tgok ja smbil mulut terkunyap2 mcm minum air..bila bg kot cawan, haaa..abis tmpah bsh bju..bnyak yg kluar dr yg msuk..lps mkn ja..mmg messy...bersememeh muka ngan maknn..kalo mkn biskut smpi kat kening pun ada..hehehe...lps ni nak bg fruit puri lak..bnyak resepi dlm kpla ibu ni..tak sbr ja tggu zaffran lg bsar..huhuu..pstu bila dah mkin bsar ibu rindu kat zaffran yang kcik2 la....
Alhamdulillah sehari dua ni susu makin ok...wpun aku tpksa berusha keras skit but ada nmpk perubahan...takpela..slow slow...org kata if anak dah mula makan, susu mmg akan drop sb demand berkurangan..but aku tak rs camtuh..aku rs mkin anak aku mkn makin banyak dia nak nyusu...so tuh yang susu mkin kurg tuh..iye ke..hahaha..and org kata or apa yg aku baca, kalo nak bg anak mkn biar bg time dia bru bgun or lapaq..dia akan mkn bnyak, but aku rs Zaffran time lapaq la dia tak mo mkn...msti nak nenen dulu..bg dlm 5,10 minit pun dah ok..then bg la mkn..msti mkn bnyak...nak appetizer kot..hahahah...
smlm aku msk puri kntang utk dia...dia mkn bnyak..sdap kot..tmbh epas tgok aku n zulffi dinner..sian dia..nnt biskurt teething smpi sok ibu bg mkn eh smbil ibu mkn..cptla bleh duduk..bleh dok skli ngan abah ibu dkt meja...huhuh.
skrg aku hnya bg bubur nsi utk mkn lunch sahaja dkt nurseri..mula2 mmg aku bekalkan puri carrot n bubur nsi , puri for Bfast, bubur for Lunch..but ada skli bbsitter tercakap yang "sdap la dia mkn arini,bubur cmpur carrot..." huh..aku soh bg puri pagi, lunch bg bubur dia p cmpur lak..isk isk...sabo jela...dah tu, tu yang aku bg bubur ja..blik ptg biaq aku bg puri kntang kat dia ...
sjak aku nak bg mkn ni, mcm2 cdgn org bg kat aku..." mula2 ni bg la minum nestum dlm botol or air nasi dulu..." aku dlam hati kata: "heh, apa??taktahu ke bg nestum dlm botol tu bleh sbb kan bdk tercekik..n cpt la karies gg anak aku tuh.." then.."tawarnya mkn bbur ksg..msuk la garam skit..ikan bilis ke..." aku: " Ha!!!!! garam???? mana bleh...dalm fd pun dah ada natural sodium..if additional sodium kita bg nnti renal sloute tggi, kidney dia tak mature lg nak tmpung renal solute yg tggi tuh... dkt dua thun baru la bleh bg bnda ada garam..." org : " abis tak tawar ke?tak sdap la bubur tawar..." hmm...bdk ni bkn tahu pun sdap ka tak..dia pnah mkn susu ibu dia ja...huhuhu..
actually kinda irritated gak...aku bkn apa...bkn takmo dgr org bg cdgn ke apa..but kdg2 cdgn tuh tak munasabah sgt..bila aku bgtau napa takle, depa kata..."ala..bdk2 ni (mean anak dia..) ok je akak bg mkn camtu dulu..takde papa pun.." aku; dalam hati kata " hmmm..takpela..itu anak dia..ini anak aku..aku sayang anak...aku blaja mcm tu, aku baca mcm tuh so aku nak ikut macam tuh...biar la aku bg mkn anak aku ikut cara aku..." huhuuh..bkn aku takmo dgr nsiht org but kdg2 tuh..tah...aku ni, apa aku kata n aku set nak buat, itu la yg aku buat...pedulex la...apa yg boleh amik aku amik...aku sllu gak buka blog2 other mommies tgok apa menu anak diorg..mana yg ok aku ikut...
wpun kena berusha keras n pnat skit nak bg mkn anak, msk utk bekal ke nrseri, aku happy..sb anak aku mkn air tgn aku..bkn air tgn org lain..time ni la aku nak kwl apa dia mkn..nnti dah pndi bli mkn sume sndri , msti tah papa dia akan mkn...mmg bleh je bli nestum , all those puree yg siap dlm botol but itu kilang buat..ini aku buat dgn pnuh kasih syg n doa2 drpd aku...biar la dia mkn wpun tak ssdap mana...
smlm ms aku bru knalkan puri kentang, dia mkn bnyak..sdap kot...wpun puri kntg ksg tak de apa, sdp sb lemak cmtuh rs..hahah..tak abis aku lak yg mkn...hahah..takpe..maknya dietitian, biar la ank nya mkn mknn yg sht n proper..nnti org kata, maknya pndi ckp aja..buatnya idak...kan haru jadinya...
Obses??ya aku mmg sgt obses..sgt obses dgn usha aku utk mberi spnuhnya bfdg pada anak aku...huhu..dr cari botol susu, ke mencari pam..dr satu pam ke satu pam...yang pling puas hati pam ptama aku juga..Avent Isis ..heheh, then sbuk mencari botol, cooler bag etc..and then skrg sbuk nak cri milk booster lak..huhuu
aku agak stress lately..stress sb susu yg diperah agak merudum..biasa2 drpd 5oz skli pam ni dpt dlam 3oz sahaja...n bila balik rumah aku kena catu Zaffran spya tidak tlalu kerap mnyusu spya stok ada utk pam ke paginya..ini mbuatkan zaffran selalu meragam n kerap bgun myusu n buat kan aku smkin letih...huhuhuh..aku nak buat camana nak bg tmbh susu lg eh?
oat?dah mnum ari2 dgn susu, 2, 3kali shri..kurma 3,4 biji..dulu jalan..skrg tak lagi...longan kering?hmm..sama gak...maxolon?jadi sekejap ja...ni aku dah try domperidone...nmpk ok but tak tahu bapa lama..n aku sbuk nak bli Fenugreek capsule...nk mkn gitu je rs tak tertelan..so cari kapsul..mahal skit but utk anak...apa2 jela...
opis mate aku kata.."ko nak bli apa lagi qayyy!.tak habis2...obses btul ko kdg2..." hahaha mmg aku agak obses..obses nak mberikan yg tbaik buat anak aku...nak fully bfdg till dua tahun...bila susu tak ckup rs cam nak g cri ja susu form utk bkalkan anak in case tak ckup...but sgtttt la tak snguppp nak p bli...rela bssh payah pam drpd bg susu formula...huhu
aku rs ok apa aku obses...kwn2 aku nmpk aku bsgguh2 so ada yg bsmngt gila nak Bfdg gak nnti eventhough blum kwen or ada anak..ok la tuh...may my obsession will rub onto them...
wahahahaha..(gelak mcm Rico dalam Hannah Montana!!!hahah)..
papapun doa2 Allah mudahkan usha aku nak mnyempurnakan pnyusuan...aminnn
Bang cu, tahniah sb dapat 8A 1 B dlm PMR..wpun dpt B arab, ok la tuh yg lain tu stret A..tahniah sb berjaya dpt yg tbaik..takpe tak dapat 9A sb Allah bg apa yang Dia nak bagi..ada hikmah kat mana2 tuh..hadiah nnti eh...
Zaid adik aku no 6..aku jarang bckp psal dia bak kata Hajra..mmg..aku jarang smbgkan pasal dia...aku bnyak citer psl Lang, abg. aris n kdg2 Syamil but Zaid..jarang..sb apa ya?sb aku jarang bnyak ckp ngan dia sb dia pun tak bnyak cakap...mgkin sb kecik2 aku suke marah dia..huishh..rs jahat lak aku ..huhu..dia kcik 2 dulu suke buat lawak2 skit..kdg lawak dia tak lawak pun, n dia sllu mcm thegeh skit..heheh..so aku sllu marah dia sb terhegeh2..aku msih ingt kcik2 dulu ms dlm sek rendah dia ngan aris suka berebut nak mndi kat toilet bwh pdhal kat atas ada dua toilet siap ngan hot shower lg but nak berebut gak mndi kat bwh tuh..saja suka nak gaduh..pastu kena marah ngan abu sb bgduh n lmbt p semayang kat surau..hahah..pastu aku ingt lg dia n aris suka main gusti2..konon2 wrestling mcm The Rock la apa la...lps tu bila skit mula la nak nangis n mula la nk tmbuk sngguh2..hahaha..tapi skrg takde lg mcm tuh..he turn out to be a fine young man...
dia tak bnyak cakap sejak msuk Maahad..sepatah tnya sepatah jawab..aku masih ingt aku tnya soklan cepu mas kat dia dulu.. " adik, awak dah baligh lum?"hahaha..dia tersipu2 nak jawab ke tak nak..hahah..pastu umi kata "kena jawab sb umi nak tau awak dah pikul dosa sndri ke blum.." hehe..soklan tu aku mmg suke tnya kat adik2 aku n kat sepupu2 aku yg laki...nakal gak aku..tp aku tnya ada sb..aku nak tahu adik aku tu aku nak kn treat mcm budak lgi ke or dah msuk ke alam lain..heheh.
Lepas dpt 5A UPSR,Bangcu msuk Maahad ikut jejak aku wpun dpt tawaran msuk sek lain...kdg2 aku tnya dia belajar sirah nabawi, tafsir, fiqah sume..bnda2 yg aku blaja kat maahad dulu..bila aku tgok buku2 dia aku tringt ms aku kat Maahad dulu..kdg2 dia tnya gak kat aku, "Kak , awak blajaq dak ni dulu?" kat Maahad Bangcu msuk Kadet Polis..kdg2 wknd tak blik pun sb kena bltih kawat...smpi hitam legam kulit dia sb jemuq tgh hangat..tapi mkn lama mmg nampk mkin macho la awak..hahaha...
Masa aku dlm pantang la, aku bnyak ckit kot ckp ngan Bangcu sb aku dok lama kat Penang..if tak, aku balik skli skala takdan nak smbang pun...ms dlm pantang, kalo dia blik ja, msti dia rajin ngasuh Zaffran..smpi penah aku pesan soh tlg tgok Zaffran sat, aku nak naik mndi, aku letak kat katil bilik bawah..dia dok main gme ms tuh..alih2 dia skli lena smbil tepuk2 kan Zaffran...ngan tisu abis stgh kotak lap jeluak Zaffran..hahaha..yang tu aku ingat sangat....Bangcu aku paggil adik, sama ngan Syamil n Aris...taktahu napa dr dulu tiga2 org tu mmg aku paggil adik..dah tbiasa pggil adik pastu dpt adik lain lak...heheh..skrg kitrg bahasakan dia Ayah Cu ngan Zaffran..sama ngan Ayah Cik utk Syamil ..aris ja takthu lg nak pggil apa..sat Pak Uda, Sat Pak Teh..pning aku pun ...
anyway, Bang Cu tetap unik..salah seorang adik aku yang unik ngan karakter masing2...insyAllah, mudah2an Allah permudahkan semua urusan adik untuk bjaya di dunia dan akhirat...kakak sayang adik....
arini aku nk knlkn mkn puri sayur lak into menu harian zaffran...aku ptg kcik2 carrot n aku rebus smpi lmbut..then bru aku blend smpi hncur...dia tdo ptg td, bila bgun bru aku suapkan...sdap agknya carrot tuh.bnyk gak dia mkn...abis 3tbsp aku letak...bnding ngn bubur yg ni diaa tk perlu kunyah kot.sb tu dia mkn jer..bila lmbt jer dia bnyi bisg sb nk lg..hehehe..kjap jer dah bis...tuh pun nk lgi..sok ibu bg lg eh sayang...
Tahun Baru 2009...1430H...a new yr but doesnt seems like a new yr..rs sama ja ari2..sekejap ja rs dah msuk thun bru..bru hntr LPP 08 dah nak kena wat SKT thun baru lak..hmmm..any new resolution?
takde kot yang vogue2 sgt..just aku nak be a better mother yang sabar n ikhlas dalam menjaga anak, yang pndi mdidik anak supaya jd muslim yang soleh, nak jdi better wife to Zulffi, better daughter to abumi n mama, better sis to my siblings...InsyAllah
n aku nak be a better dietitian in my daily job...learning more so aku bleh tlg lbih rmi org dgn knwldge aku hence bcome a btter dietitian..
n aku azam nk fully BF zaffran til dia dua thun.insyAllah...
arini Zaffran Rizqi dah ckup 6bulan ikut kalender Islam..lahirnya pada 1Rejab 1429H..sekejap je ms berlalu...dulu tau tido je and nangis..but skrg ni,mcm2 dah dia bleh buat skrg..dah mcm2 prgai dia ada skrg ni...dia dah pndi meniarap n guling n dok jd bulldozer(menyondol ke depan nak menyukur) but sehari dua ni dah pndi guna tgn utk tarik bdn dia ke depan..takde lg dok sondol2 kepala ke depan..heheh..dia dah pndi main Cakk...kalo ttp muka ngan langsir atau slimut atau bntal, dia dah pndi trik kain tu bila lmbt Cakk dia...n kdg2 tu dia dah ready nak gelak bila org nak ckp Cakkkk...n bila aku nyanyi "round around the garden like a teddy bear, One step, two step, tickle under there.." smbil main jari aku kat tapak tgn dia n trus geletek ketiak n perut dia, dia dah siap nak ketawa bila aku mula main...dah xpect aku nak geletek dia...
n smggu ni dia syik merap ja...takmo dok, asyik nangis, nak kena dukung je..nak org main ja ngan dia...dan dia dah pndi kalo lmbt ja angkat ke dia akan nangis smpi selak...meleleh2 airmata..sdih aku...mlm plak jaga mnyusu sejam sekali smpi susu nak pam hntr nsri pun skit ja...smpi aku pun naik stress sb pnat bdn n susu tak bnyak sb dia asyik mnyusu je...kdg2 rs mcm nak p cri tmbh bg susu formula ja but aku kuatkan smgt gak, pam gak susu, mkn oat n susu bnyak2...bg motivasi diri baca review kat Susuibu.com..penat..mmg pnat...but sumanya utk anak...aku tpikir, if ummi bleh mnyusukan aku adik beradik 7org slma yg boleh..almost 14years, takkan aku bru 6 bulan dah nak give up kan..huhu..
kdg2 aku rindukan zaffran yang bby dulu..kecik n comel...rindu nak pluk zaffran yang dulu..but zaffran yang skrg lbih mghiburkan sb dia dah boleh macam2..dah pndi bnyi2 suara bila lmbt angkat or bila dia seronok n happy...bila dia ketawa n snyum, rs dunia ni bseri2 je...
Im really looking forward to the next few mnths...tk sbr nak tgok apa dia pndi nak buat..hehehe
today aku start bg Zaffran mkn bubur nasi yang telah di blend kan...aku tsgt la excitednya nak bg dia mkan kan...mggu lepas dah siap g cari bowl n sudu.. n of cos as usual, POOH la kan..Hajra geleng kpla je..hahaha..aku decide nak start arini sb arini ari Jumaat...zaffran lahir ari Jumaat; penghulu segala hari, mula minum susu ibu ari Jumaat, so mkn pun biar la bermula ari Jumaat..so lps ni aku nak kenalkan mknn bru kat dia pun aku nak bg ari Jumaat..moga berkat InsyAllah...
so ms mula2 bg mkn, dia mcm tak mau telan, dok tolak kuar..but skli lg bagi, dia dah mkn..excitednya bkn men...mkn, abih la dlm 2tbsp...aku tak bg bnyak sb bru kenalkan lgi..sok pula ok....
27hb Dis 08
arini ms mula nmpk ja mgkuk n sudu dia yang berisi bubur dia dah mjerit2 xcited tak sbr nak mkn..skli mkn dlm dua tiiga sudu pstu nangis takmo...bg susu..lps tu bru bg mkn lgi..kali ni bru abis dlm 1bowl gak..heheh..
n the next2 daynya aku bg bekal mkn kat nurseri,,sdih tak dpt bg mkn sndri..but nak wat camana kan...huhuhu...mmm next week nak bg puri sayur lak..hehehe
today is or 2nd Anniversary...me and zulffi..its been 2years since we been married..2years filled with happiness, joy, laughter and also tears at times..heheh..I am blessed to have Zulffi as my husband..he is caring,responsible, funny, loving and what the most important thg is, he loves me with all his heart...Having him in my life complete me, he's my other half, my soul, my partner, my bestfren...without him, I dont think I can live as happy as I am today...as my heart is with him, as his is with me..being married to him this 2whole years makes me know him betterand loving him more n more..not having him with me even for a night makes me feel like my life is incomplete...I love you sayang..Happy Anniversary.....
today, Zulffi and I went for a date...I had been waiting anxiously since the past week since I make the date with him..its been a long time since the last time I felt this feeling..anticipating a date..heheh..early morning, I send Zaffran to the nursery..(sorry ya Zaffran.ibu nak g dating ngan abah!!lenkali ibu bawa ok..)then Zulffi n I went to the mall bike riding...hehehe..that was why I had been anxiously waiting for the date..Zulffi bought his new Yamaha Fz in May.I was 7mnths prgnnt at tht time..the only time I ride on the bike when he brought it home n took me for a spin around the quarters..he had been asking me to ride with him to the beach but as I was hugely prgnnt at that time and then the arrival of Zaffran Rizqi, it didnt give me a chance to go bike riding till now...
it was thrilling n mind boggling to go bike riding with him...hahaha..I was holding and hugging him so tight as I was half scared of falling riding with him..he was being the Mat Rempit, riding 100mph plus plus on the road, passing other bikes n cars...mannn!!!my adrenaline was pumping up so high..dah la kerusi tmpt duduk passger tu tinggi skit, so sort of like mcm tonggek skit la...hahah(I dont know why I am thinking of Raihan laughing while writing this...hahah) agak2 mcm minah rempit gak la aku ni rsnya...hahaha..rs mcm nak tcabut tdg pun ada, dok pgg handbeg lagi,nsib aku bw sling beg..if beg yang kena kepit tuh, ishh..aku nak kepit camana pun aku taktahu...hahahha..on the way pergi aku buka speck sb tkut tcbut ke apa.n tkut gak sbnrnya...but on the way blik, dah pkai..bosan tak nmpk jalan..hahahaha..
kitrg takde la g mana sgt pun. g Tesco, g mkn kat Kenny Rogers..jalan2 smbil pgg tgn dia, pluk dia, just enjoying the moment of being the two of us, talking about us, our life, new love -Zaffran.dah lama tak dating mcm ni..dah lama tak pgg tgn dia smbil jalan sb dukung anak atau tolak stroller, dah lama tak pluk pggng smbil jalan...huhuhhubila ada anak mmg kdg rs takde ms utk kami bdua sahaja..meaning just US..so kdg2 kuar ni bdua ni best juga...n I miss the old times just being with him....bukan tak seronok ada zaffran, but I miss my hubby at times...bila kuar bdua mcm ni, I can stop being a mom for a while n just be a wife to Zulffi..huhu..but tak best gak, sb kdg2 tringat gak kat anak yg dok kat nuseri...dah mkn ke, ckup ke susu..huhu..well, I guess once a mother is always a mother...huhu
mlmnya, kitrg g dinner dkt New Horizon ...mkn butterprawn, ikan siakap tiga rasa, tomyam putih, n oyster with garlic..smpi nak pgsan makan..hahahha
apa2 pun, Happy 2nd annivsary sayang...another 50-70years with u InsyAllah...I love uuu....
sb dr kcik lgi abumi sllu bw kami p penang mndi pntai kat Annan love Bhara site tuh....hahaha...so this was MZR 2nd trip to pntai..sblum ni ms abis ja pntang aku dah bw dia p mndi pntai ngan uncles n aunties...
asa bru dia akan aktif n gelak2...mgkin la...ms mula2 letak kki dia atas tanah, dia mcm geli sb pasir tu basah n lmbik n bila air laut dtg kena kaki dia mcm plik.kaki dia tjengket2 atas pasir..geli kot...hahaha 
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