my baby, my love...

last week Zulffi n I went to scan at Dr hafidzah clinic...although we had to wait for nearly one hour dt the long list of awaiting pt despite we had called earlier to scan the baby...it was worth the wait...hehe..we had our scan n could actually see the baby huge head, heart beating so strong inside me..then the Dr Hafidzah told us the gender of the baby...what a smile I saw on Zulffi's face..he was quite excited to hear the news..well, me tooo actually..i dont mind whether its a boy or girl as long as its healthy n come safely into the world to brighten our life..well, all I can say my instinct is quite correct as I had been leaning into finding one type of name since my early prgnnacy...but I cant keep feeling a bit that I wish it's a girl...hehe..the only reason is, I can buy pink clothes, put her in pretty frock n dress n cuddle her up..hehe..but doesnt ind boy or girl, its my baby...my love...my treasure...so say gudbye to pink dresses n flowery stuff then..hehehe...I cant wait to tell ummi when we goes back to Penang this Friday...but Lang n 'Ammar already knew..well they were hoping for a girl as we had lots of little boys n big boys in the maktok's family already n the last girls in the family is Alin..hehehe..so its quite nice to have another girl that everybody can dote onand pampered...but tough luck guys..next one...InsyAllah..hehehehe

the day before, we went to survey clothes n things for the baby so we can have some ideas n price to buy the baby's necessities in Penang...well, most of the thing I found cute n sweet that caught my eyes is the pink one..hahah..and of course all of Pooh's Collections..all the hats, booties, pants, tops, even the mosquito net is Pooh...my..my..my..what a delight....cant wait to start buying..Zulffi said its not suitable for a boy to where Pooh but nobody said it can't be done or its a rule that must be obeyed...I'll buy all Pooh's thing for the baby..hehehhe..Cant wait to go shopping this weekend...Im telling all my frens to buy only pooh thing for the baby..hahahaha.and the theme color is BLUE Everyone....not PINK!!!hehehe..

n talking about shopping, I need to get a maternity dress or pants n blouses...just to get everybody mind from asking "when are you going to wear maternity dress or when are changing your dress" hmpphh..quite bored to answer it actually...as long as I can still wear my baju kurung, then what is the use of buying clothes that I would only wear for a month or two...but seriously, I need to buy some new clothes as all my pants is too tight n some of my baju kurung is quite fitting esp the at the waist..hmmm..so we'll see if we can find sumtg in Penang that catch my eyes...hmm and not to forget to send my "kain" to the tailor to make sum new baju kurung in Penang...new clothes for the baby n mummy...=P

24 weeks n counting...

This is day number 174 and you're 24 weeks pregnant!You have 106 days or 15 weeks left, and are 62.1% of the way there.Baby's age since conception is 160 days or 22 weeks. Your baby weighs about 1.2 pounds and is about 8.4 inches from crown to rump. His or her lungs have started secreting surfactant, the substance that keeps the moist, interior surface of the lungs from sticking together; and he or she is practicing breathing. Your baby's eyes are also watching for light and its ears are listening to your heart beat and your stomach growl.

hmmm...sume changes that I have seen in my body..my wt as usual keep on increasing.my waistline getting wider, my clothes getting fitter n tighter.hmpppp...wat more should i say...today was my 6th mnth ANC...I was quite excited to see the dr as I was hoping to scan my baby but was quite disappointed when the dr said to wait till next mnth...zulffi had came just for the scan..i was so crushed then..i was hoping to see the baby...hnmmm..Im planning to have the baby scan at a private clinic..just for the sake of seeing the baby...I was hoping to be able to see the baby's gender..so maybe we can plan what color n clothes to buy for the baby..

today, my baby was quite active since early morning.n when the doctor checked for the heartbeat, the baby actually kicked me...i was laughing...naughty boy/girl...maybe he/she was responding to my sound or anxiousness..hehehe...i couldnt wait for the baby to come..our life would sure change...in lots of ways..but it will be more meaningful n brighter with zulffi n the baby...

zulffi n i had been planning what to buy for the baby when we goes back to penang next week..i am quite excited really...to be able to buy all sorts of things for the baby..hmmm..i want to buy pinky stuff but not all pink...but zulffi said better to be safe to buy other colors 1st...heheh..we had this list of things to buy..thank God for all the websites that supply the list n info actually...thank God we have this technology...hehehe....so far life had been serene...but I started to get this SOb each time I eat..i cant seems to be able to eat much...to finins the usual amunt of rice i ate would surely make me gasping afterwards..huhu..esp during dinner..i am not able to read the Quran after mgrib prayers without feeling like a fish out of the water..huhuhu..some of this changes really makes me wonder what ummi went tru during my prgnncy..huhu...insaf,insaf...

boy or girl???

This is day number 167 and you're 23 weeks pregnant!You have 113 days or 16 weeks left, and are 59.6% of the way there.Baby's age since conception is 153 days or 21 weeks. You are due on 7/2/2008.

huhu..so Im into more than half of the prgnncy...the baby is more active..kicking much harder n moving a lot whether day or nite..it doesnt really bothers me but just a comfort to me..the love for the unborn baby is growing as well as the love towards zulffi...I love it when he touch my tummy n say salam to the baby n talk to the baby...heheh..he's so cute n adorable that way..

zulffi started to find names for the baby..he said, Im into my 6th month but we still havent bought anytg or think about the name yet..well, I have sum that I want but doesnt really favour it..I really like the name Rifqi ZiQri...or Rifqah or Rifhan...also with Zafran, Zahran..sumtg unique n not common..but the choice of names had to be mutual as its our baby...last nite, zulffi say salam to the baby n call him Mohd Zahran Rifqi..suddenly the baby kick so hard, a few times...even I was shocked..heheh..maybe he really like the name or not..heheh..but until the next scan next week, we wouldnt decide on anytg yet..maybe its a boy or a girl..who knows..I tend to find boys names, but I often look at girls things or the color of pink...or cute little girl...hmmm...I do wonder what would it be...boy or girl.... but whether its boy or girl, I would always love him or she....hehehe...

so what do u think?wanna bet???hehehe

a new blessing...

today is mummy's birthday dear baby...mummy is already 26 yrs old n sooo ready to have u into my world...at 23yrs old, mummy own a car as my bday treat, at 24 yrs old, mummy belongs to daddy n preaparing to get married to him..at 25yrs old, mummy was already married to daddy n ready to build a family with him..n now, mummy is preparing to have you..

last nite, u were so active..kicking mummy so hard in mummy's tummy...it really is a joy to feel u moving n active inside...I really love feeling u kicking n moving..n when daddy had the chance to feel u moving, he would smile so wide with such joy in his eyes..n this morning, u woke me up so early kicking me actively..maybe its ur way of wishing me happy bday dear..heheh..tq so much dear...

today is my special day n i intend to be happy n enjoy the day...ur aunty Hajra already gave me a cute teddy bear that is sooo fluffy n cute early in the morning in cute black box with a pink reabon..heheh...=)tq dear..

hopefully today gonna turn out just fine for me...

27 more weeks to go n mummy is counting the day to hold u in my arms...so cannot waitttt...

23rd weeks n counting...

my tummy is getting bigger, n I tend to get easily tired esp if I didnt get enuff of my beauty sleep....8hours is usually is the min I should get...usually in the early of the week I tend to be more fresher even if I didnt get enuf sleep..but as the day goes by to the end of the week, I tend to be more easily tired...its like my bones n muscles has turned into marshmellow or sumtg...then I really2 wish to be able to sleep all morning or after subuh on wkned just to recover or let this tiredness goes away..sumtg that zulffi tend not to agree with me...its not that I really want to, but I really need this..being prgnnt makes me feel so tired all the time..esp when u are at work n u had to stand for a long time in ward, walk the distance to the ward 2,3 times a day, go home n cook dinner...n by the time everytg settles, its already 8plus...then u just have an hour or two to watch TV before u goes to bed....hmmm...tiring...

n then my feet tend to ache although zulffi said "no urat simpul" there..heheh...n I frequently have this back ache usually in the middle of the nite...sumtimes at 3am..then I wouldnt be able to sleep afterwards bcoz of the pain...huhuhu...last 2 weeks I just had to take the day off on Thursday so I would be able to sleep most of the morning due to the frequently insomnia at 3 am onwards..huhuh..it was so bad to the extend that I cannot fully function or think well enuff n with the students attachment, its just makes me grumpy n tired..huhu...

it really is an experience of a lifetime..I guess my body is preparing me for the future ahead when the baby come, when I had 2 wake up in the middle of the nite to feed the baby or change diaper, not getting enuf sleep when the baby is not feeling well, or just didnt want to sleep, or just want to play in the middle of the nite...I guess this is a training time for me I suppose..hehe....
can't wait for the baby to come...

besides all that, there is this the bright side that I really lurve..I have started feeling the baby kicking or moving in my tummy...its sorts of like a butterfly fluttering in ur stomach or sumtig small moving in my tummy...it really delights me..hahaha...n sumtimes the kick is quite strong that I can really feels it..when I'm stressed up or on a tension state, I can feel the baby is quite restless as well...last week when I wasn't able to sleep for the whole nite in KL, the baby was also actively kicking n moving...its like he's keeping his mummy company...heheh..tq dear...luv u for that...there's dis one time when I put the TV remote control on my tummy, the baby kick quite hard that makes the remote actually moved...heheh..what a strong kick u have my dear..learning taekwondo are u dear?hehehe....

cant wait for the nexy ANC apmnt to scan the baby..whether its a boy or girl....any guess???

emotional woooess..

they say that pregnant women tends to get emotional n mood swing..people frequently describe pregnant women like a lioness protecting her territory..well, I wouldnt know about that..I seldomly had this urge to get angry or what to people..but I tend to get quite sensitive n touched even by single or simple words lately...esp by my hubby..Its not like me to be sensitive too much, but I dont know..sumtimes it just happen...I will have this feelings of sadness n feels like crying eventhough sumtimes its just a small mistakes or things that I have done or people did to me....it's not that I want to feel that way..it just happen...

I tend to want my hubby cuddling me, hugging me, always be with me, caressing my hair all the time,...n vice versa with me to him..It's just I want to feel love n cherish by him all the time...I hate it when people raise their voice at me even for small mistakes, or things that really is not a big deal...if peole is mad at me for the way I feel, then what can I do or say....its this hormon changes or what i dont know...zulffi wont let me indulge myself in this hormonal changes reason to evrytg that I feel..he said once its not an excuse for all the mood swings or PMS symptoms...well...it applied to my prgnncy changes I supposed..but watever it is, no matter how do I feel, the only escape is tru sleep, books, n just be with myself, keeping to myself to let this foreign feelings settles by itself..as nobody is gonna "pujuk" me coz they usually dont have a clue..hmmphhh...