the fright of a lifetime...

 I just finished giving a talk about weaning diet at the Breastfeeding Class in Usm yesterday, when suddenly my phone vibrated. Its my husband...he told me that Kak Ani, (Zaffran's bbysitter) called and said that he woke up from his sleep crying and bloods coming out from his ear....and now he's screaming his heart out with pain. I was not really worried at that time as I was hoping that it was just a small wound or sumtg...I rushed to my office asap and get my things and left msg to my fren that my son fell...Zulffi send me to the office today as the car's battery wonk out on us last night so I had to wait for him to pick me up..luckily he was already on the way when he called me..the nursery called me but my student silenced the phone..so they dig Zulffi's numb n called him...


as I approached the nursery, Kak Ani was already waiting in front with zaffran only wearing a CD(a coulourful print it is =) ) crying with blood all over his ear and face n mucus from his nose and tears trickling down his face...my heart stopped then and there...i get out from the car even bfore zulffi really stopped the car  and rushed to get my baby....he quickly came and cling to me and started crying again..telling me .."akitttt..akittt..."


we rushed to A&E and was seen to by a SN..even when she was taking Zaffran's BP and PR, he was screaming his heart out from discomfort....he was crying " buka laaaa buka laa...." asking me to take off the BP pad nd PR clip.....after a while we were rushed in to the yellow zone...there, he calmed down a bit and the blood stopped coming out...but he was clinging to me like a baby koala and refused to lay on the bed or taken by his dad..so I had to hold him tightly comforting him with my big tummy and bby crushed...my tears was threatening to fell but I had to be strong or I might collapse crying...which mummy can stand watching his baby in pain......and the baby in my tummy was actively kicking and moving around which is quite unusual as it only active during the evening as if knowing that her mummy is anxious and the sound of her big brother crying telling her he's in pain...


we had to wait almost an hour before a doctor saw to us and by that time, zaffran was able to talk and telling me things but started crying again when the Doctor came to check on him...he asked a lot of questions bout the babysitter, how long we send zaffran to them , is there any fall or any kids pushed something in his ears or something..we had no idea..we called and asked but they said no fall, or no activity using pencils or crayons or anything today..and knowing Kak Ani, she's a very strict person regarding the safety of the kids and never left the kids alone without any sitter around...and they only do drawing or learning activity on someday only...and if zaffran had fall or someone poked something in his ear, he must be crying before that, not when he was sleeping...so we had to wait for ENT as they cannot do anything as they were tooo much blood clot in his ear..The ENT had to see an urgent case so we had to wait..I asked zulffi to go n pray first as it was almost 3...


when he went praying, the doctor came to take zaffran's blood..zaffran was singing The wheels on the bus with me happily then but when he saw the dr he started squirming...i had to hold him tightly with 2 nurses holding him when they wanted to take his blood to rule out any bleeding tendencies..and he was screaming ''jangann laaaa jangannn laa....." i nearly cried that time as before this I have been seeing n hearing the kids screaming in my paeds ward when the doctors take the blood and this was my time to have that experience...the 1st time, the dctr had put in the needle but unable to draw the blood and he was moving it left and right and I know how painful was that to me s an adult but to my 2 yr old son..it must be more painful...as it was unsuccsessful, the more experience nurse came n tried...and this time he was screaming till hoarse  ' tepilaaaaa..tepilaaa...jangan laaa...." but he being a strong boy was looking when they take his blood....i hold on to him tightly consoling him and hold my sobs and tears in check...i dont want him to be more frighten...its about him, not me now.....


zaffran fell asleep sitting on my lap as he was soo exhausted from the screaming and crying and everytg
while waiting for the ENt to come...he refused to be laid on the bed as he was afraid that we would hold him again for another blood taking etc..luckily I saw a paeds Dr coming to see another pt. so I called him and he saw to my son and checked his vitals, eyes n everytg and helped to called the ENT to come quickly....the good thing about working in paeds ward is when u have the advantage of knowing these doctors and people that can treat you kid...=)  i went to pray as it was nearly 4pm...almost 3 hrs in A&E..during that time, the ENt came and checked but they cannot do n see anytging as they were to many blood..so she gave a TCA on tuesday ..hopefully it ws just a local wound, nothing from head trauma or anytging..they gave PCM and Antibiotics, but when I wanted to give to zaffran , luckily I saw that it was amoxycilin and he is allergic to that...sighhh...that's another reason i dont trust doctors other than paeds as they never asked is he allergic to anytg or meds...the paeds never fails to asked....so...no meds for him..luckilyy...


we brought him home and he slept till 6 but with some crying and nightmares I think of all the trauma he went tru...poor boy...and when we woke up he was chattering like his old self n the sweetest sound is when he called me ibuuu ibuuu..n started to tell me stuff in his bby language....and now we just have to wait and seee whether there is any other symptoms to be aware of like vomiting or bleeding and just pray that it was just a local wound..nothing serious....aminn...


i felt that half of my life and soul fly away when i saw him..I hope I never hd to go tru that experience again...everrrr...