The 1st trimester

its been a while since i write in my blog...its not that I dont have anything to write but the past few couples of weeks or the 1st trimester has been a bit challenge for me than with Zaffran..with Zaffran I has been having lots of appetite and no sickness or anything (lucky me...) that I can eat anything that I can think off till I gain lmost 20kg by labour time ( my my ..qay..like a paus u know..)but thats with all the sembab and baby and everytg..




But this 2nd one, I have been feeling rather tired, unable to sit for a long time, backache, the nausea but no vomitting Thank GOD and  a few occasionally massive headcahe..and not to forget the no appetite to eat esp nasi....sian baby..asyik lapar je....but what to do...tgok mskn sndri lg tk lalu..bli luar pun tak sdp mna...so last2 msk je apa2 yg ada n simple..nsib la inche somi dan putera kcil tu mkn aja apa2....hatta roti dan tlur for dinner atau nasi dgn sardin dan tlur goreng....sian diorg....t pun sudah trun 2 kg dlm 1 bulan...bkn naik...bdk2 opis sume bising soh makan sb mcm drop sgt appetite..if dulu tak pernah nak miss lunch n esp bfast sb tkut susu tkde..skrg....sllu je miss lunch esp sb takde slera nak mkn..sggup msuk bilik tido drpd mkn ms lunch sb tak larat..huhuu


pg keje pun do all the routines, and even kalo dok dpn pc,baca mel, bls mana yg ptut, kdg2 tlis kt fb, bls komen,  msuk tgok blog n then kuar...nak bloghopping or blogwalking ke blog kwn2 pun takde sgt mcm dulu..n kdg2 bila tgok bnyak je giveaway n contest buat n nk join mcm yg bru ni Hanz buat...nak join n bnyak idea nak tulis but in the end...nada...haiya..CIK QAy ni kna aktif skit kot....huhuh...mandommmm semacam je...


n smlm satu hari tbaring...skit perut ke apa taktahu...nk kata silap mkn takkn la smpi dua hri skit perut...tringat  skit ms nak bslin zaffran dulu....haila..nauzubillah....jgnla pk bnda yg plik2....cuaksssssssssssss...zulffi bising soh p cek tp ku bese la...slagi bkn pd dktr yg di hosp n pd dktr yg mmg pkar, mls nyee aku nak pg esp pd GP...even pd dktr klinik staf yg hanya MO je, takde nye aku nak pcaya hundred percent...takpelaa...if pain berterusan, nnti pg jmpa ong ..lgpun mgu ni tca 2nd cekup....


mlm td tdo lps mgrb smbil tidokan zaffran, then bgun isyak dlm 12 lbih..nk lelap balik snyap2 dok pk mcm2, baby baru yang nak dtg, nak cri breastfeeding pillow, prefold utk try pd bby, sarung tilam bru, and a few things ttb trasa mcm a sudden movement yang subtle...skjap je..ku imagine betul ke apa taktahu la, but i hope its  sign from the baby she is fine? opss SHE??hahaha blum cnfirm....just a feeling...sama mcm zaffran dulu..drpd awal mmg dah rs boy without a doubt..so this one pun sama..harap2 btul...but if boy pun ok aja..ada kwn zaffran nak wrestling..hahaha/if tidak asyik nk wrestling ngan ibu..haiyaaaa..mna tahan maaaa..perut sdah nmpk, baby sdh tekan perut..bila mau tido atas perut ibu  tnp alas baju atau pun baringa tas ibu mcm ms bby dulu, haiyaaaaa..serupa rs takle nak bnafas aja....tmbhn si putera kecil tu sjk mnum susu formula n mkn lalu ni, mkin naik berat bdan...huhuu


baru ni pg KL conference MDA, jmpa rmi my ex student n collegues and kbnyakan tgh preggy juga..n yg bestnye sume nye beza dlam a few days of each other..mostly end of dis..but mine lg best due 1st Jan..hopefully..diorg suruh bslin 31st dis sb nk anak sebaya..hahah..mcm la boleh soh kluar bila2 ikut kita nak..semu perut dah nmpk, except mine...kcik n takde sapa prsan smpi day 2 i wear a pregnancy blouse yang ada ropol2 bru org tnya..hihihih....see..im losing wt....instead of gaining


gtg..si abang kcil sdh bgun..bising dia sbuk na memblog juga....next time ja tulis lgi....

beza 9 mingguuuu...hihihi

Ini rupa baby aku sekarang...at 14weeks....

DANNNNNN

ini pula rupa baby kwn baikku InsyAllah.....pd 5 minggu....moga selamatt yaaaa.....

Zaffran 2nd Bday Bashhh

yesterday was Zaffran Rizqi birthday in Masihi Calender...hehehe...


the luvly cupcakes was courtesy of Auntie Ell...yummmyyy.....
as usual, we had the bash at Zaffran's Taska....just some little celebration to make the kids happy....

there we fries, keropok ikan, sweets, jelly, cekelat duit emas, hahaha...cupcakes etc...it was a blast...me and the babysitter got our hands full with the kids demands...this one wanted a jelly and this one wanted a cake...


and the babies, were crawling all over me to get my cam and also the jelly n foods in my hands..seriusly, I am not meant to be a mum to a lot of kids at one time...seriusly, i cant multitask....nearly freak out when I was holding baby Aqif on my lap when another 6 mnths old baby came crawling at me and wanted to climb onto me and another toddler was trying to sit without looking where he's sitting and zaffran wanted this and that an another kid was shoving some sweets for me to unwrap...Goshh...I dont know how the BS do their job....hahaha

It was fun...but at the end of the day, I was as sticky n grubby as the kids with some sweets stuck to my cloth, n the sugary water from the jelly on my pants n tudung, plus this one kid actually sneeze directly at my face with all sorts of jelly, keropok tit bits, sweets all are on my face n tudung...yerk.....


But it sure was fun....dont know whether I will still have any opportunity to do it more next year..InsyAllah....Tq kak ani, alin and anak2 kak ani sb tolong buat bday Zaffran.....

Zaffran got another car as gift from his Ummi...hahaha...now he has two cars at home, and two bike...hahaha...anybody want to give him a motorcycle???hahaha

new songs to be shared- maher zain...

last school hols, i was back in Bertam for a week for my c's Lang weds...it was a bliss to be able to be home for a long time Plus hubby gone on a course...so more time to spend in Bertam ketam than in pasir tumbuh alone with MZr right....


on this short hols, i fall in love with this new nasyeed artist - Maher Zain..1st time heard the songs when my lil bro played it on the Pc while playing games....then again in the car on the way to Mee Udang Yusof Pulau sayak.... directly fall in love with the songs, lyrics especially...Awaken, Barakallah...


some of the lyrics just sort of make me think bout myself esp after i just finished reading Versus by Hlovate....if you have read versus and relate to the lyric of Awaken, you can surely sense what is it about...a bit of versus, its about a girl change from a skatergirl to a better muslimah, and a skater boy change to be a better muslim bcause of the girl at first but found the way for Allah after a while...its not about the story but bout the things said by the author that make me think bout my life, my practice of life etc...you have to read to understand it more...but some of the things is, like, is it enough that we pray 5 times a day, read quran once a day...baca yasin malam jumaat, ckup puasa,byr zakat...but what bout other things in life to be a good muslims, like tgjwb kita pd pencipta kita as khaliq, kita as khalifah, tgjwb kita pd jiran tetangga, sanak saudara, berdakwah sbarkan islam etc..is it enough we just do our routine?is it enuf kita solat 5 waktu tapi kita tak ttp aurat dgn sempurna..?adakah kita dah ckup baik???


bilamana sdh trg2an Firman Allah SWT dalam ayat 208 surah al-Baqarah bermaksud: 


"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Masuklah kamu ke dalam Islam secara menyeluruh dan janganlah kamu mengikuti langkah-langkah syaitan. Sesungguhnya syaitan itu adalah musuh kamu yang nyata."


maka wajar kah kita hnya mengambil sebahagian yang kita ingin ikut dan tggal sebahagian yang lain??


kita ingin jadi baik..but baik kita adakah baik kita ikut definisi Allah?


kita nak deifinise baik kita,haruslah  beriman dengan Allah mean mengikut apa yang Allah suruh, hindar apa Allah larang..so selagi kita tak mencukupi all apa yang Allah suruh dan hindar apa yang Allah larang, kita masih blum ckup baik...


kita tak mgkin jd sempurna mcm Nabi...but kita masih boleh trus mencuba dan trus mencuba utk jdi baik ikut definisi Allah kan...


those are some of the things that I got from Versus...


Plus the lyrics from Maher Zain - Awaken just make me think more and more ...


try to see the lyrics and do ponder to what i said earlier...you can find the songs in 4shared.com or youtube....reading and listening to songs doesnt have to be a lagha thing as long as you get something good in them....insyAllah....

AWAKEN- MAher zain

We were given so many prizes

We changed the desert into oasis

We built buildings of different lengths and sizes

And we felt so very satisfied

We bought and bought

We couldn’t stop buying

We gave charity to the poor ’cause

We couldn’t stand their crying

We thought we paid our dues

But in fact

To ourselves we’re just lying

Oh

I’m walking with my head lowered in shame from my place

I’m walking with my head lowered from my race

Yes it’s easy to blame everything on the west

When in fact all focus should be on ourselves

We were told what to buy and we’d bought

We went to London, Paris and

We made show we were seen in the most exlusive shops

Yes we felt so very satisfied

We felt our money gave us infinite power

We forgot to teach our children about history and honor

We didn’t have any time to lose

When we were.. (were)

So busy feeling so satisfied

I’m walking with my head lowered in shame from my place

I’m walking with my head lowered from my race

Yes it’s easy to blame everything on the west

When in fact all focus should be on ourselves

We became the visuals without a soul

despite the heat

Our homes felt so empty and cold

To fill the emptiness

We bought and bought

Maybe all the fancy cars

And bling will make us feel satisfied

My dear brother and sister

It’s time to change inside

Open your eyes

Don’t throw away what’s right aside

Before the day comes

When there’s nowhere to run and hide

Now ask yourself ’cause Allah’s watching you

Is He satisfied?

Is Allah satisfied?

Is Allah satisfied?

Is Allah satisfied?

Oh

I’m walking with my head lowered in shame from my place

I’m walking with my head lowered from my race

Yes it’s easy to blame everything on the west

When in fact all focus should be on ourselves

dua tahun membunga kasih ku...

1 Rejab, cukup Zaffran Rizqi berumur dua tahun...
dua tahun menjadi buah hati pengarang ibu dan abah,
dua tahun melayan kerenah dan ragam yang pelbagai,
dua tahun yang penuh kenangan suka dan manis2 belaka...


dua tahun menjadi cucu kesayangan tok umi, wan, dan opah,
dinanti kepulangan oleh aunties and auncles di bertam dan langgar....

Zaffran Rizqi yang membesarnya penuh ditatang bagaikan minyak yang penuh...
diasuh dengan penuh kasih syang dan belai cinta oleh ibu dan abah....

Zaffran Rizqi yang cerdik pandai....
 menjadi harapan ibu dan abah untuk membela Islam, menjadi Imam Muda buat diri, keluarga dan agama...
besar harapan ibu dan abah pd Zaffran Rizqi...
Besar perancangan ibu dan abah buat Zaffran Rizqi di masa hadapan, buat mendidik kamu menjadi muslim yang beriman dan mampu menjadi pemimpin Islam berjiwa kental...

senyuman Zaffran Rizqi  yang cukup manis dan manja, sntiasa mbuatkan ibu teringat2 di kala berjauhan..
keletah Zaffran Rizqi yang manja dan lucu sentiasa buat ibu terhibur...
mendengar panggilan manja "ibuuuuu..ibuuuu...."   "abahhh..abahhhh" yang keluar dr mulut mungilmu buat hati ibu senang melihat Zaffran membesar dengan sempurna dan sihat...

mendengar Zaffran menyebut "lillah:" (alhamdulillah) stiap kali bersin, atau "Awaahh bar" (AllahuAkbar) jika barang terjatuh, atau "subhanawahhh" (subhanallah) bila melihat bnda cantik dan indah buat hati senang sekurangnya kalimah Allah bermain di lidahnya...

Ibu berharap, Zaffran Rizqi akan membesar menjadi abang yang akan membantu dan memimpun adik2nya nanti menjadi  muslim yang sentiasa beriman dan beramal soleh....dan menjadi pembela Islam di masa hadapan....aminnn

hati sudah di bertam avenue

dua hari lagi mau pulang ke bertam ketam avenue..hati sdh ada di sana, bukan lagi di spital mengadap pt2 yang tak pernah putus...
tekak juga sdh muak makan mskan sndri di sini...makan di luar juga sdh tidak sesedap mana..bulan ini sj, bole kira berapa kali sj ibu rizqi ni rajin memasak....sgguh malas dan tidak bersemangat sekali utk masuk ke dapur apatah lagi mengemas rumah....
agaknye kalau balik ke bertam avenue akan rajin memasak dan bntu mengemas juga ka?silap2 jd mandur sahaja....hahaha

dua hari lagi saja lang bakal bergelar Puan...dan sdah mau jd ahli keluarga lain...lps ni semuanya bakal berubah...apa ya reaksi aku mendapat ahli baru dalam keluarga nnti?hmmm...yang pastinya sudh msti tidak best tpksa bertutup litup spnjang hari..hihihi...

hai...masa cpt la bergerak ke hari Jumaat..kalau la bertam kubang kerian hanya satu jam...saat ni juga aku mahu pulanggg.....tak sabar rsnya mau makan nasi kndri utara yang sedap...aku sdh puas dgn gulai darat.......huuhuhu

Ya Allah selamatkan lah saudara saudara kami...

just past few weeks dgr di radio ikim mengenai konvoi Lifeline4gaza yang membawa barangan dan supplies utk pnduduk Palestin...bagaimana pengulas menyatakan apa risiko yang bakal dilalui..dan hari ni pgi2 dikejutkan dengan mel dalam user Usm mngenai raid ke atas kapal mavi Marmara yang membawa these supplies dengan link2 kpd update mgenai raid ini yang uptodate tlah menyebabkan 15 kematian..Ya ALLah....tmptkanlah suadara2 muslim kami sbgi syuhada mu....


melihat life drpd Aljazeera mengenai apa yang kemungkinan  bakal berlaku, brg2 yang mgkin akan dirampas, dan kpd aktivis2  katanya akan ditahan di kem detention di tel Aviv dan dihantar pulang ke ngra msing2 dan ssiapa yang menentang akan ditahan di Tel Aviv...Ya Allah, slmtkan lah saudara2 kami ...

Yeay...Im fully CDING Zaffran

I have successfully been fully cdying zaffran at home and also at the nursery...yeay for me...luckily the babysitter solidly support me and willing to wear the cd at the nursery...although at first they put the soiled Cd in a plastic bag instead of in the wetbag that  i have provided..heheh..but now it run pretty smoothly...I have to wash the Cd used usually on Tuesday And Friday, so mean twice a week usage...so need to get more stock for at least once a week usage and for little adik soon...anyway thank you to Inche Zulffi sb tlg bsuh cd...hihih...


but still finishing the DD stock that still left...or should I let it go???hihi


Zaffran also now likes his Cd than his DD..he sometimes choose which one he wants..hihi sometimes he wanted to wear the CD by himself which is of course impossible..hahaha


i have tried all sorts of cd locally..Lunatots, Joli, Moo MOO kow, but the most that I like is Bamboolite...that is why Im selling those to help other mum to know bout the product...hihi

Look at this "imam Muda " hihihihi..so comfy with Cd only and abah's kopiah...hihihi

owh ini la rupa anak ibu skrg ya????hihihi

9 weeks

my online businesss

oh ya....sblum terlupa....disebbkan dah terduduk di kelntan ini, dan terbejangkit sikap org2 kelantan yang suka meniaga ini, maka di sini nak mengwar2kan.saya  dgn bantuan dan dorongan kawan baikku cik puan Huda Akmal dan Encik Zulffiku, ku dah membuka online stores menjual cloth diaper brand Bamboolite..hehe...ada lagi brg2 yang akan dihupdate ke dalam blog itu kemudian...so, sila la jenguk web ku itu ya...GOING GREEN BIZ

kenapa Going Green?sbnya ter pengaruh dgn Kak Hanz, then slps buat projek PTK shingga dpt pujian drpd penilai dan dpt naik aras, buat lagi bersemangat utk trus kan green lifestyle mcm kak Hanz..tq dear...


so lahirla GOING GREEN BIZ....so sila la sokong daku ya.....


Hidup HIJAUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!