membakar kalori di malam hari

 mlm td, we all pulang ke rumah mama slps asar...ms balik ke rmh mama, air tkde di rmh...so tpksa la tggal pinggan mgkuk tak berbsauh..nsib la pgi2 tu dah msk siap semua..so tghri just grg ayam n msk nasi...ms tggal rmh air tkde lg..aku dah cek paip mksure dah ttp semua...tkut bnjir plak...


balik ke rmh dgn mngntuk2 dgn harapan dpt la lelap kan mata trus...tapiiiiiiiiii


smpi je dpan pntu nmpk basah depan pintu.."SUdahh!!!!" kata zulffi..."mesti tak ttp air ni.."
masuk je dlm rmh...aduhaiiii..tgok the whole 1st floor tu berlinang dgn air...rupanya..Cik abang ku ms mndikan anak, tak ttp paip...paip getah tu plak yang jnis boleh laraskan air..so pressure kuat..skli paip tu plaknye menghala ke pntu bilik air..so bila air ada, memang mnyembur laaa ke luar hall tu...bygkan drpd pkul 5ptg cmtu smpi pkul 9 mlm bnyak mana air dah kuar..nsib la air free...huhu..tapii....abis laaa bsah satu rmh....dah la penolak air tu takde..so tpksa la pki penyapu dan aku, lap dgn kain buruk..


seriaunye...tkut jtuh aja sb jubin tu mmg licin kalo basah...so, aku dan zulffi tpksa laaa bekerja keras membakar lemak mlm2 hari...tpksa alihkan sofa2, kemas kotak2 mainan zaffran sb smpi situ pun ada air...nsib la dkt tgga rmh tu tggi skit simen so air tak naik..if tak nak kena tarik kotak2 bwh tga..aduhhhh sengalllll....abis laaa bsah buku2 yang zaffran suka sumbat masuk bwh sofa..yang siannye, buku truck ksygn dia tu lencun..mmg tak boleh dislmtkan dah sb bukan board book...nsib la bli kat bookxcess rm4 je drpd rm14..huhuhu..
zulffi pun kata.."tu la..td makan bnyak..bru ja komen itu ini sb mkn bnyak..skli Tuhan dah bg rezki bnyak sb nak suruh bkr lemak malam2 hari ni.." hihi..aku diam je smbil tersengih......


dlam hati..nasib laaa bukan aku yang tak ttp air...kalo tak...hihihi...alamatnya....smpi anak 7 pun kena peringat suruh jgn careless..sb aku ni mmg jnis careless...sllu kn marah ngan zulffi..mmg wajar pun, sb bapa kali tak ttp suis iron p keja, tak ttp suis ekon....hahaha...

zulffi tgh menyapu lantai..
dan ini budak kenit, kena kurung atas tangga..sbnya, sbuk nak tolong mengelap lantai skli..bukan tak bg tlg, tkut jtuh terguling saja, n nnti basah bju suma plak...lg bnyak keje nak mndi dia...bising dia nak kluar..siap nak pnjat gate lagi...last2 aku bg kain buruk suruh lap air2 atas tngga tu..abis dia lap smpi kering..dah habis, dia sua tngan n kaki nak tlg lap yang di lantai plak...
bila kami tak bg dia kluar, dia tarik semua bil2 dlm tmpt surat....haiyaaa...

tgah berusha nak pnjt kluar

bila dah bosan, dia amik pen dan mula melukis dan menulis...

hobi terkini zaffran, menulis dan melukis..pntg jumpa pen dan kertas....

sahabat dunia akhirat

sahabt sejati sy dunia dan akhirat InsyAllah...

dalam perjalanan ke opis pg td, smbil mndgr tazkirah ust Rujhan d Ikim mngenai sahabt membuat aku banyak berfikir...sekiranya untuk disenaraikan dalam hidup aku slma 28thun ini, berapa bnyakkah sahabat yang aku boleh anggap sebgi betul2 sahabat..nama dan wajah seorang sahabat sy yang jauh dr bumi msia ini, mbuatkan sy tersnyum d pgi hari kerana dia yang pertama sy gelarkan sahabt saya dunia dan akhirat...


sahabat dalam erti kata lain, sahabat yang berada smsa kita ssh dan juga sahabat ketika menangis...cerita ustaz lagi, sahabat yang sebenar dpt kita lihat adalah semsa kita bermusafir..adakah sahabat kita itu mementingkan dirinya sndri atau sahabat kita trut mengambil berat akan kita... bila dipkir2kan, aku boleh senaraikan beberapa shbt yang aku rs smmgnya betul2 shabat, yang btul2 mgambil berat akan tika sng dan juga ssh...


kdgkala dalam dunia skrg, rakan taulan yang kita berjumpa hari2 atau bkerja bsama, tak smstinya sbnr2nya sahabt kita...sahabat yang baik takkan sengaja menyakitkan hati kita dgn sngaja..sahabat yang baik, takkan dgn mudah memperkotak katikkan perasaan sahabtnya....sahabt yang baik juga, tak pernah berkira apa jua harta mahupun tenaga buat sahabtnya..sahabat yang baik, ibarat cermin pd diri kita..mengingatkan kita bukan sahaja kpd urusan dunia, tetapi urusan akhirat....itu yang utama...


sy senang dgn shabat2 skllg sy, yang mudah diajak pergi ke mana2 program tazkirah di usm mahupun di luar sekiranya ada...saya sng bila smbil bercanda sklipun, sy boleh menegur shbt2 sy jika ada yang tidak kena tnpa ada yang trasa dan skit hati mudah2annya...saya senang bila rs ukhuwah yang terbina membuat kan sy trasa mereka spt saudara atau sbhagian drpd keluarga sy sndri...

dan saya bersyukur dgn sahabt yang Allah kurniakan buat sy, esp bila dia campakkan sy ke Bumi Kelantan ini yang jauh drpd keluarga sndri...

Jika...

Owh...pagi2 hari ni...slps menghantar zaffran rizqi ke nurseri, beralih cd nasyed zaffran ke radio Ikim dan tdgr satu sajak drpd A samad Said yang sgt menyentuh hati...sgt ssi dgn tazkirah motivasi pg sblum itu berkenaan mencari sahabat sejati yang mampu memimpin dan menemani perjalanan hidup, mengenai mencari keredhaan Allah dlm kehidupan seharian..

                                                                                             Jika

Jika bukit menjadi gunung 

Gunung menyuburi rimba 

Jika sakit mendorong menung 

Menung meransang dewasa 

Lorong hidup banyak cabarnya

Jika rakit menjadi kapal 

Kapal meningkat bahtera 

Jika bangkit melawan gagal 

Gagal membibit hemah 

Landas hidup banyak tuahnya

(sajak Jika, karya A. Samad Said, dari antologi Rindu Ibu)

at 28weeks

Im at the 28weeks now...seriuslllyyyyyyy...but those around me said my tummy is sooo small compared to the 1st pregnancy..even I admit it..some of my collegues or staffs didnt even notice till I wore my tudung a bit higher than my tummy ,hahaha


I can still wear most of my clothes or baju kurung, I only gain wt around 4 Kg in the 7mnths, I still can wear my smallest ring which I cannot do during Im with Zaffran's...my appetite is fair enough compared to Zaffran where I ate A lOT hence the 20kgs wt gain...
I can still do most of the job around the house but tire easily...had to sleep as early as possible as I would always woke up at 2 am and unable to go to sleep and would started to think of all the unrational things that makes a mother scared...a bit calm after midnite pray n doa ..guess this baby want her mummy to be closer to HIM in the last trim...good bby.. had to take care of the little man and the big daddy...luckily, Allah grant me a  husbd that helps with most of the chores except the kitchen which is my main OP site..still able to cook daily wpun huduh2...=) 


I think this 2nd baby makes me a bit worried as most people said, perut kcik...tak nmpk pun...n the baby movement not as active as Zaffran yang mana ingt ms 7 bln dah siap gerak2 smpi berbonjol2 perut...seeing n knowing all sorts of things in the paeds ward does makes me worried...only To Allah I silently pray n hope that all goes well with this 2nd one..
till tuesday for the nect TCA...hope all goes well inside...insyAllahh..


Oh..and the speculation that the baby is a girl as I mentioned the baby as her...well, hopefully its a her...=) bcause the Ob said, unable to see the testis of the baby so maybe its a girl..InsyAllah..but mgkin juga baby boy yang pemalu..heheh..apa2 pun...mana2 pun boleh..asal shtt....

Zaffran's progress..

for the last 2 days, alhamdulillah...Zaffran is doing well..eating well, playing well, laughing and talking, active as usual..but with a little bit of crankiness and manja2....wanted to cling to me all the time esp during bottle feeding, n eating, refuse to sleep in his buai and wanted to be cuddle to sleep in bed and have to wait till he wakes up as he frequently open his eyes during sleep as if to check whther Im still there or not.....and bak kata istilah abu..tak boleh salah sikit, meti tantrum...

no vomitting, imbalance while walking, able to ride his bike..so far Alhamdulillah good progress....but still got blood coming out from his ear..not sure whether its from the bath water that dilute the blood clot and trickle down or something else is going on in there...still worried till see the ENt..and luckily, Allah helps us by getting me an apmnt today instead of tuesday as I insist that Im a staff and there are blood coming out from his ears still...so had to wait for zulffi again as he had ENT apmnt also but in HKB...so had to wait for him to come and get zaffran...


will update later on, on Zaffran's progress..InsyAllah, hope this will settle my mind a bit...


Tq for all the concerns, sms, msges and comments from frens, families....may Allah bless u alll...


PS : cant update tru Fb as been blocked by USM including twitter myspace dan sewaktu dgnnya...=) only YM avail...connect tru qay6382 if need to sms me...Tq

let the pixs speaks...

on the way to husm

     

utter exhaustion..

safely back @ home...

the fright of a lifetime...

 I just finished giving a talk about weaning diet at the Breastfeeding Class in Usm yesterday, when suddenly my phone vibrated. Its my husband...he told me that Kak Ani, (Zaffran's bbysitter) called and said that he woke up from his sleep crying and bloods coming out from his ear....and now he's screaming his heart out with pain. I was not really worried at that time as I was hoping that it was just a small wound or sumtg...I rushed to my office asap and get my things and left msg to my fren that my son fell...Zulffi send me to the office today as the car's battery wonk out on us last night so I had to wait for him to pick me up..luckily he was already on the way when he called me..the nursery called me but my student silenced the phone..so they dig Zulffi's numb n called him...


as I approached the nursery, Kak Ani was already waiting in front with zaffran only wearing a CD(a coulourful print it is =) ) crying with blood all over his ear and face n mucus from his nose and tears trickling down his face...my heart stopped then and there...i get out from the car even bfore zulffi really stopped the car  and rushed to get my baby....he quickly came and cling to me and started crying again..telling me .."akitttt..akittt..."


we rushed to A&E and was seen to by a SN..even when she was taking Zaffran's BP and PR, he was screaming his heart out from discomfort....he was crying " buka laaaa buka laa...." asking me to take off the BP pad nd PR clip.....after a while we were rushed in to the yellow zone...there, he calmed down a bit and the blood stopped coming out...but he was clinging to me like a baby koala and refused to lay on the bed or taken by his dad..so I had to hold him tightly comforting him with my big tummy and bby crushed...my tears was threatening to fell but I had to be strong or I might collapse crying...which mummy can stand watching his baby in pain......and the baby in my tummy was actively kicking and moving around which is quite unusual as it only active during the evening as if knowing that her mummy is anxious and the sound of her big brother crying telling her he's in pain...


we had to wait almost an hour before a doctor saw to us and by that time, zaffran was able to talk and telling me things but started crying again when the Doctor came to check on him...he asked a lot of questions bout the babysitter, how long we send zaffran to them , is there any fall or any kids pushed something in his ears or something..we had no idea..we called and asked but they said no fall, or no activity using pencils or crayons or anything today..and knowing Kak Ani, she's a very strict person regarding the safety of the kids and never left the kids alone without any sitter around...and they only do drawing or learning activity on someday only...and if zaffran had fall or someone poked something in his ear, he must be crying before that, not when he was sleeping...so we had to wait for ENT as they cannot do anything as they were tooo much blood clot in his ear..The ENT had to see an urgent case so we had to wait..I asked zulffi to go n pray first as it was almost 3...


when he went praying, the doctor came to take zaffran's blood..zaffran was singing The wheels on the bus with me happily then but when he saw the dr he started squirming...i had to hold him tightly with 2 nurses holding him when they wanted to take his blood to rule out any bleeding tendencies..and he was screaming ''jangann laaaa jangannn laa....." i nearly cried that time as before this I have been seeing n hearing the kids screaming in my paeds ward when the doctors take the blood and this was my time to have that experience...the 1st time, the dctr had put in the needle but unable to draw the blood and he was moving it left and right and I know how painful was that to me s an adult but to my 2 yr old son..it must be more painful...as it was unsuccsessful, the more experience nurse came n tried...and this time he was screaming till hoarse  ' tepilaaaaa..tepilaaa...jangan laaa...." but he being a strong boy was looking when they take his blood....i hold on to him tightly consoling him and hold my sobs and tears in check...i dont want him to be more frighten...its about him, not me now.....


zaffran fell asleep sitting on my lap as he was soo exhausted from the screaming and crying and everytg
while waiting for the ENt to come...he refused to be laid on the bed as he was afraid that we would hold him again for another blood taking etc..luckily I saw a paeds Dr coming to see another pt. so I called him and he saw to my son and checked his vitals, eyes n everytg and helped to called the ENT to come quickly....the good thing about working in paeds ward is when u have the advantage of knowing these doctors and people that can treat you kid...=)  i went to pray as it was nearly 4pm...almost 3 hrs in A&E..during that time, the ENt came and checked but they cannot do n see anytging as they were to many blood..so she gave a TCA on tuesday ..hopefully it ws just a local wound, nothing from head trauma or anytging..they gave PCM and Antibiotics, but when I wanted to give to zaffran , luckily I saw that it was amoxycilin and he is allergic to that...sighhh...that's another reason i dont trust doctors other than paeds as they never asked is he allergic to anytg or meds...the paeds never fails to asked....so...no meds for him..luckilyy...


we brought him home and he slept till 6 but with some crying and nightmares I think of all the trauma he went tru...poor boy...and when we woke up he was chattering like his old self n the sweetest sound is when he called me ibuuu ibuuu..n started to tell me stuff in his bby language....and now we just have to wait and seee whether there is any other symptoms to be aware of like vomiting or bleeding and just pray that it was just a local wound..nothing serious....aminn...


i felt that half of my life and soul fly away when i saw him..I hope I never hd to go tru that experience again...everrrr...

Puasa Sunat Enam Syawal.

Dalil Puasa Sunat Enam Syawal. Abu Ayyub Al-Ansari ra berkata: Rasulullah saw bersabda:

(( مَنْ صَامَ رَمَضَانَ ثُمَّ أَتْبَعَهُ سِتًّا مِنْ شَوَّالٍ كَانَ كَصِيَامِ الدَّهْرِ)) رواه مسلم.

Maksudnya: “Sesiapa yang berpuasa Ramadhan kemudian dia mengiringinya dengan enam hari dari bulan Syawal maka seperti ia berpuasa sepanjang tahun.” [Sahih Muslim hadis no: 1164].

:::::::::  Ramai yang tak berapa berasa sangat dengan ganjaran pahala puasa 6 hari bulan Syawal. Ramai juga yang rasa: `benda sunat, tak buat tak pe`.  Andaikata ganjarannya merupakan wang ringgit contohnya dapat RM1,000 kalau puasa sehari, tentu ramai yang berebut untuk lakukan. Begitulah nilai yang diberikan oleh manusia di akhir zaman ini.  Waalahualam.

DIA berikan dan DIA ambil sekelip mata..

mlm td awal aku dan zaffran melelapkan mata kami kerana Inche Z tiada d rmh bekerja...dan aku sndri sdh  kepenatan yang teramat dan zaffran sndri sudah manja terlebih2...


 jam 1130mlm aku mndpt sms dr Biras aku , Ati yang dia sdh melahirkan bby boy...my first nephew..hihih....ati bersalin 2 weeks earlier...Alhamdulillah...sume slmt..sukanya hati  kerana bru mgu lps kami bersmbg psl psdiaan bersalin dan sbuk membli car seat yang sama buat bby kami..hihih...dah bsalin..Tahniah....agaknya bila la Hilman boleh jumpa Ayah Pi dan Cik qaynye yerk....msti lmbt lg...hihi...so mama sdah ada dua cucu boy..harapnye yang akan dtg ni girl la pulak yer...


aku bgun solat Isyak, dan mula teringatkan adik Syamil yang akan fly ke UK jumaat ni...sebak rs sb tak dpt nak hntr di KLIA...dan tak dpt nak spend ms yang lama dgn adik raya ritu...lps ni sure makin sunyi dan kosong rmh kami di BERTAM avenue...dan for sure Zaffran akan merindui Ayah ciknya sorg...antara rmi2 uncles nya, nama Acik aja yang dia sllu sbut dan pggil....kenapa ya?agak2 lps ni balik dia kenal lagi ke?


hampir pkul 2 lbih baru aku terlelap...terjaga kembali jam 430pgi bila mndpt sms dr seorang sahabat memberitahu akan pemergian anaknye ke Pangkuan ALLAh...sdih yang teramat bila mndpt khabar itu....sebak kerana sahabat baik ku  itu perlu melalui dugaan sebegitu rupa apatah itu anak pertamanya...tapi apakan daya kita hmbaNya yang berada di dalam kekuasaanNya...ssguhnya DIA yang lebih mengetahui yang terbaik buat hmbaNya...InsyAllah  Inas Mardhiah akan menanti ibu dan ayahnya di syurga kelak...


sahabat....aku trut berduka atas pemergian Inas.....moga kau tabah dan diberi kesabaran mghadapi dugaan ini....InsyAllah Inas akan menanti kau disyurga nnti...

better pay now than later

I just bought a brand new cars eat for the unborn baby...it come in a very big box n delivered to the office and cause quite a fiasco at my office...what could possibly be inside the box that Pn Qay bought...most of them are quite right...its a car seat...





the car seat I bought during a sale...cheaper maaa..but with rear and forward facing seat, with 5 safety harness point, retractable to recline position and its for newborn to 4yrs old..it come with baby cushion but i already bought the Kiddopotamus head n body support as  extra support...



some of the comments made just make me tisk tisk tisk alone bcause of the comments made just show how many parents take safety as a non important things..some of them said, " why do u need a  new car seat?Zaffan's pnya kan ada?pakai la yg tuh..kan dia dah besar.suruh la dia ddk atas kerusi je?", or " alaaa lmbt lg bby kuar...pgg je la ms bby tak boleh?" or " alaaa perlu ke beli car seat?"


for me, Car seat is a necessity for my baby...even when zaffran's was in my tummy I already bought a carrier baby seat for him for me to use..first of all bcause, Im driving to work alone, n need to send him to the nursery, 2ndly its bcause of safety that is the most important thing...


Taking care of paeds ward make me met and see pt who is the outcome of  parents' negligence for the safety of their kid..one case that I met, a 5 yr old girl, who was paralysed and on oxygen support machine all tru her life due to her inability to breath on her own n get enough oxygen dt she was thrown to the dashboard of her parents car when she was 9months old when the car crashed. She was held by her mom on her lap... and another kid, had brain damage also when the car crashed and she was thrown to the windscreen, at the age of 5 months. Also was held by her mom.The children survive the accidents, grows up ,  but not as normal kids the way each parents hope and pray as the long term effect of a 5seconds tragedy that just wait to happen to anybody....


Remembering how depressing the parents are taking care of the child, seeing the paralysed child being depressed and keep on biting on her fingers till they are bleeding and turned to gangrene and make her fingers need to be cut or some of them are being " gigit smpi putus" as a results of her being depressed seeing her little sister able to move and talk, walk, play when she's only able to lay down and stare at others, just makes me prefer to spend extra money for my kid safety today than be sorry later on.. those images of the kid that has been imprinted in my mind, just show how your negligence or lack of effort and knowledge can cause you more than money could buy...


I have  been amazed by how some parents esp mom transport their child. Some of my friends, just put their child in a basket and strap the basket to the safety belt in the front seat of a car. ANd the child just lay their unprotected in case anything happend to them..they could be thrown away, or the glass could just shatter and fall onto them and hurt then badly or blind them. Some just put the kid on the back seat and strap to the seatbelt...a baby, strapped to a seatbelt that was made for an adult...and one mom said to me, she just put her child on her lap and drive to work..dailyyy!! OH MOY GOSH!!!I just can't imagine that...and these people are actually not those uneducated people but people that I worked with or know that actually gone to Uni and get a degree etc...but their ignorance, could pay a high price for the child..if nothing happen, Alhamdulillah..but if something did happened?nauzubillah.....


even though Zaffran is already 2 and can actually seat with the safety belt on in the front seat, but I prefer to strap him to the car seat...1st bcause of safety..2ndly, he will distract me while driving when he's not in the mood to sit properly, he will stand, and tries to goes back to and fro to the back seat that makes me just worries that if I brake hard he will stumble and fall into me and cause me to lose concentrations while driving and cause accidents...3rd, bcause he will throw tantrum or wanting to stand up if he sit in the front seat as he cannot see all the trucks and cranes, bulldozers that we passed on the way back home as his view is being blocked by the dashboard..its better for him to sit on his car seat for me and his good.


I find training him in the car seat since baby is quite rewarding...now he will automatically sit on his car seat and put on his shoulder strap by himself, tries to put the buckle by himself without a fuss as when he was smaller..eventhough sometimes he will holler bcause he didnt want to sit on the seat or he wanted something or he's just throwing tantrums or just wanted to breastfeed there n then, at least he's strapped to the seat and could not distract me driving..I just kept a deaf ears when he cries or whine..or I play his fave music or just tries to entertain him by asking him things or showing him things along the way tru the 5km journey..I had some incidence when I had to stop as he was crying to hard. 


But as tru times, I had found the trick to keep him calm..either by bringing his fave toys or trucks, or books or just keep some snacks in the car that I can easily grab and feed him along the way. ANd by time, he's the one that decide, which toys or book that he wants to bring in the car..and by the end of the week, I had to haul all of his things n books back into the house as my car already looks like a wreck strewn with kids stuff...sigh....the price to pay for having a kid in the car...


anyway,being extra careful doesnt brings you harm..it rewards you...I'm trying my best for my children safety...at least I can say, I already tried my best and the rest I leave in Allah's hand...